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Bipolar Disorder: Stuck in a Moment

“You’ve got to get yourself together, you’ve got stuck in a moment, and you can’t get out of it.” –U2, Stuck in a Moment

One of the most annoying parts of bipolar disorder, for me anyway, is feeling like I’m stuck in a mood that I can’t get out of.

Example: I had a long day this past Sunday, traveling four hours round trip. While...
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Bipolar

Her Bipolar Life: In the Throes of Depression

Please excuse my silence for the past 10 days. I am back and ready to keep going, no matter what.

Depression is a disgusting thing. Right now I'm in the throes of it.

I don't know if I've ever wrote a blog post like this on Her Bipolar Life.

In the midst of confusion and sadness.

I told a loved one, "I am near rock bottom, emotionally". It's that feeling I've had more than once, where my exhaustion mixes...
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Antidepressants

The Effects of Spring and Sunlight on My Bipolar Symptoms

Spring will be here in four days.

Here in Florida, the weather is nearly perfect. The flowers, insects, and snakes (!) have already sprung.

Others are not so lucky. This week, my family members in western New York had a severe snow storm, and more snow is expected throughout the United States.

Although we didn't feel it as much here, Winter 2013-2014 was bitter for most.

We were the only state in...
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Bipolar

What Does Mental Health Look Like?

Mental illness causes me to question myself.

Am I being irrational? Do I have the right to think this way?

Am I crazy, or just human?

I have doubted myself so much, dissected the illness so much, that I don’t know up from down.

I often can’t discern whether I am mentally sick or just going through a tough life change like anyone else.

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Bipolar

Mental Illness, Faith, and Rick Warren

I guess I'd call myself spiritual, not exactly religious.

My parents were raised in Roman Catholic families; my mother left the Church in her 30's.

I was baptized Catholic, and even though I didn't go through the full "process" of Catholicism, I still attended mass with my grandparents on hundreds of Sundays.

I observed Lent and was often guilt-ed...
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Bipolar

Bipolar Disorder and Winter Depression: I Am Seasonally Affected

I live in the Sunshine State.

It is mid-January, and the high temperature will peak at around 55 degrees Fahrenheit today.

This is cold for Floridians. We take advantage of the sun and warmth we experience most days of the year.

Even though Winter in Florida is a stark contrast to the snow, darkness, and bitter cold that is experienced in many parts of the United States, mood patterns would suggest...
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Anxiety

Christmas and Its Inevitable Fallout


Yesterday, I was worrying about other people.

I was enjoying Christmas with family and friends, getting way too many gifts, being spoiled with food and hugs and love.

What about everyone else? Were they getting the love they deserved?

I was happy, secure, at one with the Holy Spirit. It was a joyous day.

Unfortunately, inevitably, the brightness started to fade.

The realization of the Christmas holiday coming to a...
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Bipolar

Battling Negative Thinking in Bipolar Disorder

The cyclical nature of bipolar disorder often leaves me wondering, "Which comes first, the depression or the negative thoughts?"

Negative thinking can have a devastating impact on one's life. For me, it's a personal hell. My co-workers and friends rarely notice anything is wrong; I keep it to myself, but with because I keep it to myself, it is hard to cope.

The  more I rehash negative thoughts and feelings...
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