I suspect, that like me, many people with bipolar disorder and other similar challenges resist or have a tough time dealing with change.
Many people who have bipolar disorder thrive on routine. Unexpected occurrences and changes in schedule and habit can have a detrimental effect on mood.
Because change is often chaotic, I’ve tried to avoid it, so I can maintain a sense of normalcy.
However, I am learning, at nearly 26 years old, that change is indeed inevitable. It is not just something I read in the books of Buddha, in clichéd books and television shows.
There is no growth without change. There is no world without change.
We can’t stop it, and it will happen over and over again.
The first step is acceptance, but that doesn’t make transition easy. We can try to avoid making tough decisions, but eventually we must become mature enough to know ourselves, accept our limits, and say no.
In the past few years, and during my time at PsychCentral writing Her Bipolar Life, I have been in a time of great transition. Since January 2013, I purchased a home, started a challenging job, and adopted a new sense of the world.
There has been much struggle, as you have seen in my posts. But I’m starting to realize or come to terms with the following:
- Trying desperately to anticipate the future is enough to drive me crazy. It is impossible.
- Letting go, and letting life unfold, is the best thing I can do for myself and my anxiety issues.
- I am not more clever than fate or karma or God.
- Tough decisions must be made. Courage is necessary.
- I can’t do it all and please everyone. I must decide when to say yes, and when to say no.
- Pleasing others isn’t the only part of my life’s work. I must take care of myself.
- Life is always evolving, and it may not always make sense. I must have faith that I’m moving in the right direction.
- Fear does nothing but cause problems.
At this point, my life has evolved in a way in which I must make difficult choices. With recent change and awareness in my life comes my departure from my contribution on PsychCentral as the writer of Her Bipolar Life.
I thank all of you for joining me on this journey since January 2013. I have appreciated your commentary—your insight, your support, your suggestions and offerings to all.
We are not done yet, though. My last post will be a week from today, Wednesday, June 18, 2014. After next Wednesday, feel free to follow me to my home at KatGalaxyBlog.com, where I will continue to muse about living with bipolar.
How do you react to times of change?