I am anxious, uptight, and everything is moving too fast.
Am I manic?
Am I merely trying to adjust to the more fast-paced life I’ve recently acquired?
Should I go to the doctor, or will I get through this on my own?
The cost alone of a psychiatrist’s appointment is enough to limit your visits to dire needs or mandatory maintenance.
So, really, if I’m not suicidal or just plain crazy, I won’t go unless I have to.
Still, I feel uncomfortable.
This is not the dancing-under-a-disco-ball mania that you may see in television and read about in memoirs.
This is the mania that makes you annoyed by everyone. Even yourself.
As we know from our own experience, and from the National Institute of Mental Health, mania can manifest in the following ways:
- A long period of feeling “high”, or an extremely outgoing or happy mood
- An extremely irritable, agitated mood; one often feels “jumpy” or “wired”
Note that I am experiencing the latter.
It’s a 50/50 chance, and I struck out.
I am feeling:
- Like everything is sped up
Lately, I find myself arguing with my husband for no reason. I am getting upset and uptight about basic situations. I am worried. I am too intense, always scanning a situation for possible issues or threats.
I know that my symptoms are causing stress and tension.
Is it just burnout, though? Do I need to re-train myself to lay off the to-do lists, to relax on the criticism, to just let it be?
Do I need to adjust myself, or go further?
What Is Causing This?
A change in medication might be needed, but I have done that so much in the past few years, I don’t know if that helps or hurts.
Sometimes I think I need to ride through the mood swings and deal with it utilizing skills from therapy.
I have also had a workplace change in the last eight weeks, and many other environmental stressors have been added for the time being.
Again, having dealt with bipolar disorder for years, I have been in many more difficult situations.
I find myself wondering if I am in need of a doctor’s appointment or I should just get through this, and work on calming down and relieving burnout.
When you experience symptoms of a mood change, are you quick to go to the doctor, or do you see if it will work itself out? When do you know when your symptoms are too much for you to handle?