This new normal we are living in can be a bit scary. It is scary for us because we feel things with a passion some people do not have. We can’t just “relax.” I try not to get sucked into the news, but somethings you need to know if you wish you did not. My city now has a curfew. My sister in California has been under lock down for over three weeks. I never thought or imagined I would ever be wearing breathing masks, standing six feet away from others. Right?
This whole virus thing is scary and it stresses me out. My therapist finished my memoir and told me I can’t handle stress. I have known that for years. I just can’t handle it – panic attacks, locking myself in the car crying. I am a mess. Invite a virus into my life. Too much stress.
I have called some of the people in my support system. They try to give me a solid ground to stand on. My visit with my therapist last week was virtual. I will be seeing my psychiatrist this week. He also will be talking to me via computer or phone as well.
The length of this “stay home if you can,” is pushing my birthday this month. It is not that I am having a huge party, but I would like to go out for dinner. I guess just makes me have an extra birthday – one at home with my family and then out.
Are you scared too? That is normal. But you need to keep it together because this is going to last for a bit (hopefully not too long). It is okay – it is best – that you seek support. Call someone, even if you two just talk, you will find an ally in all this mess. Keep your appointments with your mental health professionals. If you can’t speak with them, see if you can use a therapist online to care for you during this period.
In a previous post I talked about stuff you can do to bide the time. Take a look back. Basically you just need to find something to deflect fear. I have been giving a lot of attention to my two dogs. I just get down on the carpet with my fur babies and they love it and I love it and for that time I am not thinking about the corona virus. When I actually take a shower (still having trouble with that) I just enjoy the warmth and my music playing outside the shower. It is the little things that are keeping me grounded.
You can also find online forums, like the ones on this site or find a Facebook group. They can be helpful and someone is always on because people live all over the world. If you start feeling a little like it is all too much and need to speak to someone try the National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255. If you need immediate help, call 911. It is important for you to reach out for support during this devastating time. We are going to get through this.