How My Brain Reacts To Lack Of Medication
Something strange happens midday when I forget, or let too much time pass, to take the meds when I am supposed to take them. I begin to have a very hard time thinking. I am very inarticulate. I get very confused; lost almost.
Does this happen to anyone else?
The medications I take midday are for my anxiety. So is it my anxiety manifesting in a form of confusion? And I hate it becuase at least with friends and family they are aware it can happen. They can guide me and help me out, but when I am with strangers it is embarrassing. For example, when I go to Starbucks I tend to get one of two drinks, but it is as though I am being presented with too many options when I am in this affliction – I stammer, I stutter, I apologize for taking so long; I say that I am tired, that I am hungry. Not that I am, it is just that I am mentally ill and forgot to take my meds like a big girl.
It really makes things worse. I already have a very bad case of memory fog (which I have written about before and will again soon for those of you that missed it). Appearing like an idiot is not something I adore. I have always prided my intellect. That is why when I was diagnosed with a mental illness and my “my brain failed me,” I was pissed.
But I know much more now and know that my brain never failed me. It just works differently.
Martin, E. (2017). How My Brain Reacts To Lack Of Medication. Psych Central. Retrieved on November 22, 2017, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/being-bipolar/2017/07/01/how-my-brain-reacts-to-lack-of-medication/