Hi, dear reader. Sorry for the hiatus. My laptop crapped out on me and I had to get a new computer. AND I moved. Lots of changes. Plus, I went on a date. Phew.
So, how do you keep your mind straight when you have so many new things going on – and all of them stressors, good or bad? I will tell you it isn’t easy. My mom had to warn me that she was worried I would get manic because of all the stress I was feeling ( I don’t “do” stress). It has caused 4 hospitalizations. No good.
I woke up this morning for the first time in my new room and I’ll be honest, I was scared to death, of what? I don’t know. My big ‘ole dog was there with me on the floor. I was in a safe place. I just felt so much anxiety I didn’t want to get out of bed. I stayed in bed until after 10. When I got up, I was shaking. I took my morning meds, tried to do normal things like wash my face, brush my teeth, take the dog out, feed her. Then I called my mom and it got better. The anxiety started to lessen. I think routine can save you in times of stress and anxiety.
As you know, I am an advocate of a good support system, whomever they may be. Mine has in the past 6 months shrunk, but I believe I can grow a bigger one again. But, even now, I have my peeps who are there for me when I need to talk. And if you are on the outside of this illness wondering what you can do to help a person with bipolar disorder – LISTEN to him or her. Just listen. Offer advice if asked, but mostly we just need to know that someone cares. Yeah, I spent some time on the phone with people I love and it helped me feel at “home.”
I also think it is important not to expect too much out of yourself. That can just lead to disappointment.I took it easy today. I organized my room a bit, made a quick run to the grocery store, just took it easy. NO STRESS. That is my motto right now.
I will have some cool medical stuff to share Tuesday. I had the genetic test done to see what psych meds are best, etc. Excited to maybe get my med cocktail right. Anyway, stay tuned and again I apologize for the absence, couldn’t be helped.