Hi. I am have a severe mental illness and you do NOT have to be afraid of me. I know sometimes it is confusing. The media sells you these stories of “psychopaths” and “sociopaths” and pretty soon they are simply interjecting the word bipolar or depressed to describe an assailant. I know that when we cannot understand why someone does something terrible in this world, that there must be something wrong with the other person’s mind. And maybe there is and maybe there isn’t.
But I am not who they are.
After I was first hospitalized I lost a lot of friends. People didn’t know how to treat me anymore, once I had that label slapped across my face, so they avoided me.
People don’t invest too much of their time or friendship into you because to some, you are a ticking bomb. And you will explode. Or so they think.
The only person I set out to hurt is myself. I don’t know why. Sometimes it is because I am angry, or sad, or frustrated, or overwhelmed. Or maybe it is because I have a mental illness. Maybe it is a misfire of neurons or a lack of serotonin. Maybe I am just sick, but I am not violent. I do not, nor will I, set out to hurt anyone.