Historically this is the time of year that I can expect to be a bit blue. That’s why I have a light box, to help battle depression. I need to unpack it.
But today laying in bed I wasn’t thinking about anything other than hiding from the world and hoping my phone wouldn’t ring. (It did). I am not suicidal or having those kind of thoughts. I am not cutting. I am numb.
We know about mania and we know about depression, but sometimes the psychiatrist forgets to mention that at times you will be numb. You won’t care about anything. That you will be void of feeling. It isn’t a pleasant state to be in.
I also get very irritable when I am depressed. There were so many expletives from my mouth today – over little things like dropping a comb. a f#$%ING comb!
Anyway, I guess the point of this particular blog post is to say these symptoms are common and you are not alone.
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