I’m having a rough day. Yesterday was extremely stressful. You know by now that I don’t deal with stress very well. I found myself completely overwhelmed by 6:30P.M. That is when my head started to feel funny. I’ve written about this before, it feels like my mind is effervescent, like the top has come off and my brainy bits are just floating around. When I am like this it is sometimes hard to get my thoughts out of my mouth. Under normal circumstances I would have probably called my mom, but yesterday she just wasn’t available so I called a friend. It helped a bit. It held me to the Earth, kept me from flying into the sky.
When I am in this state, I find it hard to remember things. Names. Places. Etc. I don’t remember much of my conversation. I just remember my mind buzzed a bit.
Today I am depressed. I slept a lot, though did get some housework done. I’ve spent a lot of time just loving on my dog. That helps.
Today I got a gorgeous bouquet of flowers delivered to me. The note was short and sweet. And while I loathe myself and this insignificant day, I know that someone out there cares about me, just by this little act of kindness. He didn’t know that today I would feel like this, that I would feel the dark abyss trying to swallow me whole. Kismet.
Once, when I wrote a blog post about being depressed, a friend came and left me a handmade card and a box of chamomile tea on my doorstep. So simple. So helpful.
Little kindnesses can mean SO much to a person who is struggling. Be kind. Smile at people. Call your grandma. Share some brownies.
I know it isn’t always fun to be around someone who is depressed. It can be quite a challenge, but a small act of kindness can make all the difference in the world.