Delicate

delicate handsWhen you have bipolar disorder, I like to think of you as delicate – not that you aren’t strong and such, just that, perhaps, you need to be handled kindly.

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On being “strong”

on being strong sunriseIn the mental illness world there are words tossed around like “brave,” like “strong.” And, yes, I am stronger and braver than perhaps I have ever been since this illness discovered me,

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Bipolar Disorder Today

bipolar textI have bipolar disorder 1 with psychotic features. Not so beautiful all the time. Sometimes I hallucinate. Sometimes I only get out of bed to take care of the dogs and go to the bathroom.

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It doesn’t itch.

gloveUnfortunately, I have fallen back upon a compulsion – the ‘C’ in “OCD.” For probably 5 or 6 years now, I haven’t done it and I think it is simply the gravity of my life falling down upon my frail shoulders that is causing it.

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Taking the Pills

taking the pillsI take a lot of pills – for my hypothyroidism, my elevated blood sugar, my monthly cycle, and, most importantly for my mind. Anxiety. OCD. Depression. Mania.

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SEX GODDESS

sex goddessAs you know my ex-boyfriend and I broke up a little over a month ago. I didn’t write down the date. It’s all been a blur of endlessly lonely days.

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