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So Many Pills

pill bottleI was doing some much needed clean-up today and found my stash of empty pill bottles.

3 shopping bags full.

Now each of these bottles once contained 30, 60, or 180 pills. Try wrapping your head around that. These shopping bags do not include the boxes that my Saphris come in, those get thrown away. So, if you’d like, add those pills in too. 60 a month.

Every day I take 13 psychiatric pills. Some are two of the same thing and some are simply a repeat later in the day. But, my goodness, that is a lot of drugs! Plus I take 2 other non-psychiatric meds and a vitamin.

I worry, I do – about what all these chemicals are doing to my body, what will be the result in years to come. I have regular blood tests checking my liver and blood sugar and other things I don’t understand. And yes, so far there have been some problems.

But I choose to take psychiatric medications. I choose them because I know what life was like before I did and I don’t want to be that Elaina J again. It scares me – what the future holds – but without these meds there may not be a future. It is a double-edged sword.

Why am I saving all these pill bottles in the first place? Because I want to make a pill bottle chandelier. (Not a completely original idea, I saw an light art piece made of bottles which inspired me). I want to make something beautiful or ironic or whatever out of these things that dictate my life.


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So Many Pills

Elaina J. Martin

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Martin, E. (2014). So Many Pills. Psych Central. Retrieved on June 4, 2020, from


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