Every year, for our anniversary, I make my boyfriend a “mixed tape.” Each are filled with songs I think define us and our relationship. Over the past 5 years, the sentiments have changed as we’ve grown more comfortable with each other, from Coldplay’s “Fix You” on Mix 1 to Joy Williams “What Can I Do (But Love You) on Mix 6.
Last year I included Ron Pope’s “Perfect for Me.” One of the lines in the song really hit home. It goes – “I wish I was stronger so that I had more to give.”
Sometimes I feel weak, like I can’t be the girlfriend or the friend or the daughter or the sister I need to be because my mental illness makes me fragile. And I do wish I was stronger, braver, more “together.”
But this is me being beautifully bipolar and that has to be good enough. I can count on them to carry the heavy loads.
So I give all I’ve got. I love with passion – my boyfriend, my friends, my family. The kind of passion that I believe that those of us who are beautifully bipolar possess.
And remarkable – that is enough.
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