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“I wish I was stronger so that I had more to give.”

Couple in loveEvery year, for our anniversary, I make my boyfriend a “mixed tape.” Each are filled with songs I think define us and our relationship. Over the past 5 years, the sentiments have changed as we’ve grown more comfortable with each other, from Coldplay’s “Fix You” on Mix 1 to Joy Williams “What Can I Do (But Love You) on Mix 6.

Last year I included Ron Pope’s “Perfect for Me.” One of the lines in the song really hit home. It goes – “I wish I was stronger so that I had more to give.”

Sometimes I feel weak, like I can’t be the girlfriend or the friend or the daughter or the sister I need to be because my mental illness makes me fragile. And I do wish I was stronger, braver, more “together.”

But this is me being beautifully bipolar and that has to be good enough. I can count on them to carry the heavy loads.

So I give all I’ve got. I love with passion – my boyfriend, my friends, my family. The kind of passion that I believe that those of us who are beautifully bipolar possess.

And remarkable – that is enough.

 

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“I wish I was stronger so that I had more to give.”

Elaina J. Martin


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APA Reference
Martin, E. (2014). “I wish I was stronger so that I had more to give.”. Psych Central. Retrieved on March 21, 2019, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/being-bipolar/2014/09/03/i-wish-i-was-stronger-so-that-i-had-more-to-give/

 

Last updated: 3 Sep 2014
Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 3 Sep 2014
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