Sunday’s Depression
Saturday was a bit of a better day because I was preoccupied and in the sun.
Sunday was the exact opposite. Sunday was the definition of depression. I literally laid curled up in my bed ALL day in a tank top and panties. I couldn't...
Sunday was the exact opposite. Sunday was the definition of depression. I literally laid curled up in my bed ALL day in a tank top and panties. I couldn't...
Sea Of Sadness
This week has been a sea of sadness, brought on by tidal waves of tears. Sunday I had a conversation with a friend of 20 years and when he asked how I was, I replied "Excellent!" and I meant that, honestly.
Let's transition to Monday...
Let's transition to Monday...
Living Alone
When I first had my real "breakdown," I went "home" to live with my parents. I put that in quotes because it had never truly been my home. I hadn't grown up there. I didn't have memories there. Until more extended family moved to...
How My Brain Reacts To Lack Of Medication
Something strange happens midday when I forget, or let too much time pass, to take the meds when I am supposed to take them. I begin to have a very hard time thinking. I am very inarticulate. I get very confused; lost almost.
Does this happen...
Does this happen...
Mental Illness And Substance Abuse
I don't know any of the people closest enough to share (or write about it), who have mental illness that don't have a vice. Alcohol. Drugs. Food. No food.
People don't understand it, IÂ think. I think the "normal" are, like, she has enough to deal with...
People don't understand it, IÂ think. I think the "normal" are, like, she has enough to deal with...
Crisis
 Recently I found out that I am a couple of people’s crisis. Hmmm. Do you know how that feels? Like a burden; like I am weight upon others’ shoulders. And yet, I understand. I am often...
Remembering The “Good Times”
I separate my life into two categories: Before I was "sick" and After I became "sick." If you have kept up with this blog you know the successful type of life I used to lead with a career and friends and travel, etc. I am sure...
Mentally Ill Dating
I am starting to test the waters in forming new relationships. I am talking to a couple of guys on dating websites. I have even been on dates with two. (Obviously not a match). It is really hard to say "Be brave. Share your mental...
This Is Why
So for months I have been talking about stress. On and on. I apologize if it became tiresome. But here is what has been going on.
Last Sunday my grandma cooked dinner for me. The next morning she had open heart surgery. She is still...
Last Sunday my grandma cooked dinner for me. The next morning she had open heart surgery. She is still...
Why Family Gatherings Can Make Me So Anxious
As you may know, if you follow this blog, my grandma is having open heart surgery on Monday. She's scared. I'm scared. The family seems to be coming together. People are making peace - however temporary - with others in the family. Invitations are being...
