Tomorrow, April twenty first, is my thirty eighth birthday. In a way, I never thought this day would come. At the end of my twenties I was in the dark pit of depression. I was living with my parents. I did not want to...
The Beach And Mania
I went to the beach for the first time this year on Wednesday. A couple of friends of mine joined me. We took our lunch and ate it there, on the beach, without having to fight off too many seagulls. I did not dip...
Accepting The Label Of Bipolar Disorder
In the late 2000s was when I first tried to kill myself. I was committed for the standard 72 hours under suicide watch. No one could explain how my happiness, stress and eventual suicide attempt went together. Depression they said. Obviously depression. I tried...
What Does It Feel Like?
A lot of people are curious as to what it feels like to live with bipolar disorder. Now, I am only speaking for myself because everyone's case - his or her life - is different. Some people liken it to riding a roller coaster...
Visit To Social Security Office
I had to fill out some papers for Social Security, a 15 page document to be exact. Well, like a responsible human being, I filled them out and sent them in. I knew they would arrive with plenty of time because I took them...
Let Me Get Back To You
Dear reader, I have had a very intense week. I started some med changes yesterday and took two 45 minute naps today. My point is that I cannot think clearly and even typing this hard because I keep hitting the buttons. Med changes are...
Project Semicolon
Rarely do I write a provocative blog post, but today I will. This will make some of you mad, but it is my personal opinion. Many of you will write comments of offense and that is okay. I like hearing what you think, the...
Those You Leave Behind (Suicidal Trigger Warning)
(Spoiler alert) If you haven't seen 'A Star is Born,' read no further. I am going to ruin it for you and then you will be mad at me. So, this is your last warning. Come back after you have seen the film, which...
Disgusting Isolation
I literally just had to count the days since my last shower, it has been that long. I know, I am disgusting. It was last weekend sometime for sure. Today is Wednesday. I have not showered in half a week and if I did...
Comparing Yourself To Others Who Do Not Live With Bipolar Disorder
Do you find yourself comparing your life to that of someone who does not live with bipolar disorder, or the often anxiety disorder that comes along with it? I do. It is so easy! First of all, there is this glorious thing known as...
