Every time I see my psych doctor he tells me about the importance of good support system. He tells me they can help me when I am having a rough time. He says he has a handful of people he call at any time when...
What It Feels Like To Live With Bipolar 1 With Psychosis
I am crazy. No, really, I am. That may offend you to hear me label myself as such but let's call a spoon a spoon. I don't live a baseline normal life. I am not looking for a life void of emotion - just,...
When Your Mind Takes A Break
I spent the weekend with my mom and grandma. I don't mind spending time with my mom at all, she is my best friend, after all. Grandma, on the other hand, can be a bit much. She is negative ninety nine percent of the...
When The Ship Goes Down
As you all know, I will be the first to admit, being bipolar isn't always as beautiful as I can make it sometime sound.(I am also aware that I can make it sound wretched, and for that, I apologize it). But we fall somewhere in the middle on...
Who Is The President?
Sorry for my absence, dear reader. I went through something I never have before. I've written before about side effects - fatigue, upset stomach, blurred vision, etc. Something much more severe happened on the twenty fifth of last month.
It started Monday without my knowledge. I took my mom to the doctor's office. She later told me that I swerved off the road six times. Dangerous! Then that evening I asked what time we had to...
It started Monday without my knowledge. I took my mom to the doctor's office. She later told me that I swerved off the road six times. Dangerous! Then that evening I asked what time we had to...
How Mental Illness Changed My Life
In college, I chose to take the apparel design opinion. I really wanted a  to be to write about fashion writer, so I had to didn't' now about fashion terms and how things were made. I don't remember english 101. Did I take it...
Check-In
It's back. That dark monster that latches to my back puling me down, down, down. It seems like a few days ago I was "normal." I was coasting on a smooth lake. Now there are capsize waves and crashing foam.
Now it's dark pits that...
Now it's dark pits that...
Picking Your Support System
I can't count the number of times my psych doctor of over a year has asked me if I am relying on my support system. He asks who they are. H reminds me how important they are in managing my mental illnesses. He is...
And Just Like That The Tears Stopped
I often liken bipolar disorder to being on a roller coaster. One minute up. One minute down. It is so hard to traverse a life such as this. Every day I wake up unsure of who I will be - where my moods will...
Then There Were Whole Lot Of “F” Bombs Thrown
I woke up much like any other day this month. Unhappy, soul-cringingly unhappy. This is the kinda hurt you feel when that first girl you love kisses another guy after you two are over. I felt a chaffing in my mind. I felt like my fingernails were on fire. I felt like everything that could be wrong with the world, in fact, was.
So, acting in such a maniacal way, I quit my meds. "That's that,"...
So, acting in such a maniacal way, I quit my meds. "That's that,"...
