Self Loathing Versus Mental Illness (Trigger Warning)
I had a hard day, just emotional, lots of crying. My brother had shared with me a link of tattoos to cover up scars. My therapist has suggested to do the same to my left wrist which it is covered in scars. And as...
I Was Interviewed For A Podcast
I recently was interviewed for a podcast about mental illness by author Joshua Rivadal. I wrote an essay for his second volume of the I'mpossible Project. It was really fun and I think if you take half an hour to listen to it you...
This Is Not My Life
I was the girl who got straight A's. Top of the class. Winning awards. Skipping a grade because I was smart. Being selected for the "gifted" program. Cheerleader. Commander of the Navy JROTC program. That was elementary through high school.
College I was working 20...
College I was working 20...
Dreaming
I only dream of high school or people from high school. Rarely college and once in a while my family. Why is that? Why am I haunted by two decades ago?
I believe it is because that is the last time I wasn't "sick." I didn't...
I believe it is because that is the last time I wasn't "sick." I didn't...
Rain And Stillness
My parents live out in the country. I visit them often since I moved back to North Carolina. They are just 25 minutes away. Close enough/Far enough. They asked me to housesit for the week as they went on vacation and take care of...
Anxiety And Blue Jeans (2 of 2)
There had to be 25 people in line and I was stuck. I couldn't get out. I have a fear of being enclosed; of not being able to escape. And there I was, with this brat putting his grubby little hands on everything and...
Anxiety And Blue Jeans {Part1 of 2}
There are two things this curvasciuous lady hate to try on - bathing suits and jeans. they just never fit quite right in all the right place. It seems I can't win with those bits of fabric.
But I NEEDED jeans, like all but one pair...
But I NEEDED jeans, like all but one pair...
Staring Death In The Face
Every day I wake up, I am closer to death, as are you. The difference is I have a mind that yearns for it. It wants to stop the chatter. It wants everything to be still. It longs for me to not be awkard,...
It’s All In My Head
What is real? Is that smell real? Or that little lady bug crawling on its petals real? How do we know whether we are asleep or awake? Where does the wind come from and why is the sun so hot?
I am being startled, as...
I am being startled, as...
Need
Do you know how it feels to need someone? Not in some sappy love song way, like literally can't perform the simplest of tasks without them?
Yesterday was horrible. Hopefully it was just some side effects of a new med. I already called my doctor and asked if...
Yesterday was horrible. Hopefully it was just some side effects of a new med. I already called my doctor and asked if...
