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My Double Life as a Child Therapist and Mom to Anxious Kids

Parenting can be hard, especially when you know all the signs and symptoms of every childhood mental health disorder. Every behavioral hiccup can be over-evaluated and scrutinized. Every developmental struggle can be cause for alarm.


My introduction to my own child’s issues came as I sat in a post-graduate class on infant and toddler mental health. I listened as the instructor rattled off signs and symptoms that should trigger concern. I looked around the room and asked, “Isn’t that normal? Don’t all toddlers do that?” Eventually I stopped asking questions and quietly took notes. I realized that I was not just a student, I was a worried mom.


I quickly found myself on the opposite end of services. I entered the world of early intervention and in-home services. At times I felt judged. At times I felt demeaned. I vowed to never make any parents feel that way. I stopped services and decided to wing it myself – after all, I was supposed to be a “professional.”

My oldest child’s issues were predominantly sensory in nature. She had her anxieties, but it was her sensory struggles that controlled our life. Luckily, with some patience and time – she learned how to adapt and grew out of her debilitating issues. She still buys clothes based on how soft they feel – but shoes are not being flung at me anymore, so I’ll take it.

It seemed just as my oldest grew out of some of her more debilitating issues, my middle and youngest children stepped up to take her place. Anxiety is rampant in my family genetics, and my kids did not win the genetic lottery.


New struggles popped up before I could catch my breath. One was afraid of the potty and was holding her poop for days. The other was crying at night that there are bees in his room. No, it doesn’t make sense, but neither does anxiety. I deal with what anxiety wants to dish out – stomach pains, sleepless nights, fear, and avoidance.

I have practiced what I preach and preach what I practice. It has been eye-opening. Sometimes I forget to take my own advice. My husband will ask, “What would you tell your clients?” Duh, I think. I wouldn’t tell them to do this! Sometimes when you are so close to a problem, you are blind.

I often feel like the universe is playing a cruel joke on me – making me earn the title of child therapist. Making me live what I teach.


Just like any parent, I have good and bad days. I have days when I am paralyzed with fear (the apple doesn’t fall far from the genetic tree)! I have nights where I toss and turn, wondering if this latest issue is going to debilitate my child forever. If he will have issues as severe as the thousands of anxious kids I have seen in my practice. I quietly make mental notes about how other kid’s struggles mirror his own. A scary checklist starts to pop up in my head. He does that too. Check. Check. Check.

Lately, I have been talking myself off the ledge. Partly because my kids are teaching me how strong and resilient they can be. Not in those moments when they are up late into the night calling out my name, but in those brave moments when they walk off the cliff and don’t look back.


My son recently started first grade. I saw the usual signs revving up. A few days before school was about to begin he started to say, “My stomach hurts” all the time. I have taught him to recognize a worried stomach and so he was able to articulate his fears. “I think I am worried about school because my tummy is nervous.”

Knowing that my child has already shown signs of OCD and debilitating anxiety, my mental dictator took advantage of my concerns and flashed scenarios of the hundreds of kids I have treated for anxiety.

He won’t be able to go to school. He will throw up and be sent home. He will cling to me and won’t be able to let go. He will get stomach aches every morning. He will start missing school. He will beg to stay home. He will miss so much school he’ll have to repeat 1st grade. He’ll want to be home schooled.

This is not my paranoia (okay maybe a little), but these are true stories being played out in my head. These are real life scenarios that have unfolded in my office hundreds of times before. Will he be one of those children? Will his anxiety get as bad as the other kids I see?

Sometimes, I wish I did not have this inside view. Sometimes I wish I did not have the gift of knowing the significance of every small fear, phobia, and ritual, and what beast it can morph into.

This year (so far) my son has surprised me – again. Just as my daughter started to poop and did not need to wear a pull-up into elementary school– my son’s anxiety did not get the best of him.

Yes, he clung to me the first day. But, then he acted like he didn’t know me as he self-consciously sat himself down. In the afternoon I held my breath as he got into the car. How bad was it going to be?

“I had a good day.” He said nonchalantly.

And then I exhaled, for now.


We are still battling a slew of irrational fears and thoughts. I have become part mother, part philosopher, as my anxious children ask me about their death, my death, and all the many dangers that can bring us both there quicker.

Like I teach others, I am taking this whole parenting thing one day at a time. I am no longer going to entertain What if thoughts that want to dominate my mind. I am going to soak up my children as they are, and not worry about what’s to come. At least for today.

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Natasha Daniels is the author of  Anxiety Sucks! A Teen Survival Guide and How to Parent Your Anxious Toddler

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My Double Life as a Child Therapist and Mom to Anxious Kids

Natasha Daniels

Natasha Daniels is a child therapist and author of Anxiety Sucks! A Teen Survival Guide and How to Parent Your Anxious Toddler. She is the creator of and the parenting E-Course How to Teach Your Kids to Crush Anxiety. Her work has been featured on various sites including Huffington Post, Scary Mommy and The Mighty. She can be found on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Pinterest or making parenting videos for

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Daniels, N. (2016). My Double Life as a Child Therapist and Mom to Anxious Kids. Psych Central. Retrieved on October 1, 2020, from


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