I’ve Come A Long Way, Baby (OK, maybe not a long way, but some of the way…)
I admit, it was a bit depressing. But just a bit. Truth is, I still want to be rich and famous. I do. So sue me. No wait – wait until I’m actually rich & famous, you’ll get more…
Anyway. In spite of Jeff’s assertion that, “Simply stated, there are NO positive aspects of A.D.D./A.D.H.D. That’s right! If you have A.D.D./A.D.H.D. you are screwed” or perhaps because of it, I was compelled to ruminate over what positive gains I’ve made since my diagnosis (less than four years ago).
While Jeff is right in that I still feel like I’m an underachiever (I wanted to start a support group for underachievers, but I just couldn’t pull it off ), I do feel that my diagnosis gave me a heads-up on what I was dealing with and a starting point towards positive change. I had an answer as to why I just couldn’t pull it all together.
OK, so I’m still not rich & famous, but at least I’ve managed to:
- Stop being late for all my appointments
- Remember I have appointments (with the help of my daytimer, which I think of as my external hard drive)
- Stop being so self-critical
- Use behavioral modification (self-administered) to stop myself from blurting stuff
- Not be overwhelmed most of the time
- Stop myself from interrupting others so much
- Listen better
- Ask others to repeat themselves if I’m not listening so well
- Let go of trying to be something I’m not
- Start to embrace what I am
- Begin to capitalize on my strengths and not bother trying to do stuff that isn’t my forté (like work more than part-time for anyone else)
- Begin to realize I have strengths
- Be less embarrassed about stuff that used to embarrass me (bad memory, sudden inability to understand my mother tongue, losing papers with phone numbers on them, etc.)
- Become more famous (if not rich)(yet)
- Completely let go of trying to be conventional, “fit in,” or otherwise conform to arbitrary societal norms that don’t make any sense to me, except for short periods of self-serving necessity (ie. holding a part-time job)
While this list may never add up to an outward semblance of “success,” damn it, I’m proud of these achievements. And – bonus – I’m still here. (Haven’t given in to total addiction, craziness, or hopelessness…although I did have an ADHD setback tonight. Totally amazing day followed by a totally devastating evening…for the life of me, I have no insight on what happened, but my best bud felt embarrassed when I was joking around in public. Took a strip off me*, kissed & made up, I came home and cried. Was I going to lose another friend? Should I just give up, already? Hide away with my cat and dog who NEVER, ever, find me socially unacceptable… tune in for another chapter of ADHD from A to Zoë to see what tomorrow brings…I dread it, at the moment). Ironic that today’s post is about how much progress I’ve made.
Maybe Jeff is right after all…
*NOTE: My American blog editor gave me a heads-up on this expression. Must be a rural Canadian colloquialism. So here’s an American / Canadian translation:
To “take a strip off of” someone means, loosely translated, to give them a stern talking to.
POSTSCRIPT: The morning after: my friend & I just had coffee and a nice visit. We’re still best buds. *phew*
Kessler, Z. (2010). I’ve Come A Long Way, Baby (OK, maybe not a long way, but some of the way…). Psych Central. Retrieved on January 19, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/adhd-zoe/2010/06/i%e2%80%99ve-come-a-long-way-baby-%e2%80%a6ok-maybe-not-a-long-way-but-some-of-the-way/