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Life Long Learning

Still learning ...

There's a reason we, the people with ADHD, often feel like we don't belong. It's that we get left behind.

No, I don't mean picked last or not at all for games and sports, though many of us knew that feeling. I mean that we see many people doing many things and we say to ourselves, "I want to do that!"

And when we say, "that," we mean all of it. We...
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Turned Up On Bust

Cranked up past ten ...

I'm not sure how prevalent that bit of slang is. I've only heard a couple of Newfoundlanders use it. It means turned up so high or fast that it can't help but break down. Like running an outboard motor at full throttle until it gives up and goes home without you, as they say.

Locally I've heard the phrase "Turned up to eleven." That pretty much means the same...
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Podcasting The Dark Side

I had a dark side ...

No, sorry, this has nothing to do with StarWars™, this is about the dark side of my life.

And no, it isn't about my current life. Currently, I'm doing really well.

This is about what my life was like before.

This is about being a younger me, with no knowledge of ADHD, and no executive function that was comparable to the executive functions enjoyed by my peers. And the podcast...
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ADHD Running in Smoke Rings

All smoke, no mirrors ...

If you have ADHD and you smoke, you're self medicating.

When I was younger, I smoked. I smoked from the age of twelve, to the age of 36. When I turned 48 and had been smoke free for twelve years, I was able to say the same thing I could have said at the age of 24, that I had smoked for half of my life.

Not really an accomplishment...
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ADHD Porridge Brain

This is my brain on ADHD ...

There are two things that impact on my brain at the same time. Two opposing forces, if you will.

One of them is the driving urge to be doing something all the time. I love being busy.

And that is not a bad thing. Being busy is good. I get lots done.

But the other thing that impacts on my brain is this, I hate being ...
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Waffling At Breakfast Time

What's for breakfast?

I'm a bit scattered this morning. I seem to be losing time. I look at the clock and think, "Gotta get up." or "Time to make breakfast." or "Time to write, right now."

Then I glance at the clock a few seconds later and ten minutes have gone by. What the helz???

So I'm trying to figure out what's causing this today, because nothing saves time like thinking about something other...
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The ADD In ADDiction

Odd that we can be addicted to so many things, but forget to take our meds, eh?

I'm not saying that addiction is the sole domain of ADHD. I'm not saying that you have to have ADHD to have an addiction. I'm not even saying that there is a higher rate of addiction among people with ADHD.

I'm saying I wouldn't be surprised if there was a higher rate of addiction among people...
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Recurrent Focus

Remind me what to do again?

I know it all sounds very "New Age" and "mind over matter" and the like, but I'm going to suggest this anyway. And those of you who have been following along will realize that this is a recurring theme that I put forward on many occasions.

I'm going to tell you, once again, now that the holidays are over, to please go easy on yourself.

And at this...
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The Hoarding

The hoard ...

A hoard is a collection of valuable artifacts, usually found by archaeologists. Guess what I found in my house while I was moving?

Not a hoard. Well, not in the strictest sense of the word.

I found a collection of artifacts that have value to me. Though quite a few of them I've already tossed out, way more than half of them are in the house I'm now living in. And if...
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