COVID-19 has one thing in common with ADHD. It is world wide, it is everywhere.
Are we more likely to get it? Maybe, we’re clumsy in some ways, and forgetful. I personally am still working on making a mask, it is half sewn, I’m not bad at sewing, but my machine is temperamental and slow so it takes longer than it should and there are things to distract me.
But then, other than my walk every day where I stay the hell away from other people, crossing the street to avoid them and then cheerfully calling out “hallooo” to them so they know it’s nothing personal, I don’t really need a mask.
We get our groceries delivered, or we pick them up by drive-by where the person who collected them for us puts them into our car trunk and we drive away, having already paid by phone.
It’s a strangely beautiful world these days
It’s not the world I would wish for, but there are parts of it that seem to have been things we could have been doing all along and they are improvements over what we had before.
I loved grocery shopping back then, but I’m pretty impressed with all the new systems that have been put in place.
And to be able to order my coffee beans online, pay for it online, and then a few hours later open the door when the bell rings and find a bag of the stuff sitting on my step is pretty damned sweet.
I’m not saying …
I am not wishing things wouldn’t get back to normal, but I’m well aware that the old normal is pretty much gone for good.
So I am hoping that we can get to the new normal as soon as possible, but we can’t really rush that.
You see, normal is whatever is stable, and if we try to rush to something that is stable and static and won’t change, we’ll just be making a new landscape that will be torn apart again by this virus.
So, we have to deal
We have to deal with what comes our way. And when we’ve dealt with that, we have to deal with the next thing, and the next, and the next.
And that was the way life always was for us. What seemed stable to the general population was an undulating landscape of pitfalls and mountains.
We may actually have an advantage here in that when everyone else had to hit the ground running when this shizzle hit, we were already doing that.
I’m also not saying …
I’m not suggesting things haven’t changed for us, I’m saying that things always were changing for us. We have new things to deal with, yes, but our lives were already fluid and changeable.
I am doing things by my self these days that I used to do with help. And I’m not doing some things that I used to do frequently.
Yes, I’m losing sleep some nights. Yes I’m wondering what happens if one of us here in my home gets sick. I’m worried about my family. I’m worried about my friends.
I have worked online for a while, that hasn’t changed, but I am interacting with people who are struggling with the new virtual society and their struggles affect me, I am an empathetic person.
And the fears and hopes of myself and my family and my neighbors and the whole world affect me also. I am struggling to keep the anxiety down.
And when it seems to be ready to overwhelm me, I remind myself that I have dealt all my life, and I will continue to deal until the end of my life.
And I will use every skill I have and every trick I’ve learned to make this life the best it can be. And many of those skills and tricks I have learned … because I have ADHD.