Have you ever been looking for something?
Ha! Sorry. Look who I’m asking.
And look what I’m asking. Do we not spend an inordinate amount of our time looking for things?
And worse than that, do we not spend an immoral amount of time looking for things that we don’t really need for whatever we are actually supposed to be doing?
That is …
I mean, this morning, I went to the breakfast nook table to get my puffer, and saw on the table the box that I promised to fix for my partner. One of the issues with the box is that it’s supposed to have a magnetic closure. The magnet is still there, but the countersunk lug that it is supposed to magnetically attach to is missing. I looked at it closely and thought, “I need to cut a piece of bolt and grind the top of it smooth and fit it into that hole with glue.”
Off I went to find a bolt of just the right size.
As I was passing through the laundry room on my way to the garage I stopped myself. Why did I stop? Because the laundry needed some attention.
I put the washed load in the hamper to take upstairs to hang and put the next load in the washer. Then I asked myself, “What was I just doing?”
I remembered that I had been heading to the garage, but I also became aware that I should not have been doing that, I have work to do first. I need to get my posts written and I have some IT work that needs my attention. I should be on my computer with my head down putting in the time to get my real jobs finished.
I gave my head a shake and went back to my seat. I pulled my keyboard towards me and got back to work.
But of course, part of my work is to write this blog and this blog is about living with ADHD.
And the symptoms and results of those symptoms can be annoying. Well, that’s a bit of an understatement, they can be negatively devastating to the life of the person with ADHD as a result of their pervasive, invasive, intense and maleficent nature.
I began to write about the fact that among the things I do a hundred times a day that annoy me greatly, looking for things is one of the more common ones.
And looking for things I don’t really need is among the most annoying parts of having ADHD.
So when I’m looking for something I can’t find, ’cause that’s an ADHD thing too, and I’m particularly grumpy, it might be because I have also realized that the thing I’m looking for is also something I don’t really need right now.
But right now, I think I should maybe go get my puffer. And I seem to remember something about laundry needing done as well?