This is not how it’s supposed to work.
Yesterday I went through my day after having slept only two hours the night before.
Today I’m running on about eight to nine hours of sleep.
It’s like night and day … or day and day? Day without sleep and day with, but … opposite to … ?
Ah, let me explain.
On Wednesday night I had some pain. It felt bad enough that I thought I should go to the hospital.
They did a bunch of stuff to rule out bad things and I then came home at about 5AM.
I went to bed and got two hours sleep.
On Thursday night I was kind of tired, understandably so I’d say.
So I went to bed before 11PM and slept until seven-thirtyish or there abouts.
After my two hours of sleep I was feeling like the day was probably not going to be a good one.
But I chose to step into it and get through it. I love a good challenge and this was going to be one.
I rolled on through the day with hardly a thought to how I was feeling.
After having almost nine hours of sleep, I feel … like crap.
I’m not feeling sick so much as just tired. My head is aching like I need oxygen and my body feels like it’s been beaten up.
What’s my choice?
I know it isn’t logical, but my choice would be to feel like I did yesterday when I was running on two hours of sleep.
Today my mind feels rested enough that it is able to wander around and I’m getting more tired just trying to keep on track.
Yesterday I was almost too tired to think and that kept my mind from wandering maybe, though it doesn’t seem to make sense even for someone with ADHD where the things that don’t make sense are the norm in our alternate universe.
Yesterday I was doing all three of my jobs at once, managing them as if I had six arms and three keyboards.
Yesterday I was a magician, I did my editing, my writing, and my IT work and in between times I made supper and ran errands and had a financial meeting at the bank.
I was on my game.
Just as an example, I made myself a cup of coffee. While it was running through I thought I’d wind the clock which had stopped. I wound it and then went to get my coffee from the coffee maker.
I was almost there, and realized I hadn’t set the time and started the pendulum swinging. I turned back and did that then went to sit down.
And …. no coffee!
As I headed toward the coffee maker again I realized there was food on the counter that needed to be put away. I picked it up, went to the fridge and put it away after juggling stuff around.
Then I sat down and picked up my computer and reached for my coffee … not there.
I got up again and was heading to the coffee maker and realized I was a bit hungry … “NO!” I said to myself.
Now I’m back in my chair with my coffee and my computer …. and yes, some pie, and I’m wondering why so little of my work is done.
I really need less sleep.