I’ve just finished helping tear down the annual festival I volunteer at. And last week I helped put it together. Counting the two and a half days of the festival itself, I spent eight of the last nine days at the park where it is held.
And I worked pretty hard while I was there.
Also, I took my computer and did my other work in the minutes I could scavenge from construction and festival going.
I also volunteer for that festival all through the year by being one of five hosts of their official radio show. And that landed me on stage at one point with my co-hosts making sure that the festival goers knew about the radio show we do. It also meant that I spent time interviewing some of the performers during the festival. It was great.
I know I could write a post about how I manage to get myself into so many different things and how they always seem to come together and make my life and my days complicated, but I think I’ve already done that before.
So the point of this post is more about how I manage to get through all the things that come together to complicate my life.
And I do it by …?
Well, by remembering that I’ve managed to get through everything thus far and am still going. I know what it’s like to be swamped, to be overwhelmed, and I know what it’s like to not really notice that I’ve managed to overcome.
Because I have ADHD I often manage to get through it all without noticing that I’ve made it past, because I am still busy doing other things.
For instance, as I said, I’ve spent eight of the last nine days working hard on something that isn’t part of my everyday life. And while I did that I tried to keep up with my everyday life too.
But I couldn’t
Of course I couldn’t. I am so busy in my normal life that there’s no way I can just add something as massive as Summerfolk to my to do list and get it all done.
And when Summerfolk was all packed up and put away, I was looking at all the things I’d fallen behind on.
Specifically my real jobs, writing here and working at the Owen Sound Hub.
And also …
I’d also fallen behind on the laundry and the dishes and cooking and other things I should have been doing.
And I would be remiss, though it is probably too much information, if I didn’t mention that, although I showered last night, my whiskers and fingernails could use some attention.
So many things that still need doing.
And it feels to me like …
I’m still way behind. And it feels that way because I seriously thought, with my ADHD mind, that I could keep up with everything, though it’s never worked that way before.
So, because it feels like I’m still way behind, I feel like I haven’t really accomplished anything.
So I have to take a moment every now and then and remind myself, “Hey, you and your crew of friends and colleagues, you built a festival, you attended it and worked through it and then you tore it down and put it back in storage. And you managed to get a lot of things done along with that.
“And yes you have ADHD and yes it affected you negatively and yes that hasn’t changed, but seriously, having ADHD is just the same from one day to the next, and given how it seems like a whole lot of things going on all at once, it’s a lot like an event with several stages and many things going on all at once.
“Quite frankly, ADHD is nothing short of a one man festival.”
And it is.