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Have You Ever Wondered?

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Can you do this?

If you have ADHD, one thing you may have experienced is having to reread something, possibly multiple times, in order to get the gist of the thing.

Now, on the surface of it, that would seem like you’re dull, unable to grasp concepts that others have no problem with.

But there’s the invisible and insidious ADHD to consider here yet.

Yes, to the outside observer it would appear that we are slow.

Except …

We know we’re the absolute opposite of that.

In fact what’s actually slow is the thing we’re trying to read. Likely dull to the point of painfulness for us.

Now I know …

I can say that we’re fast, we can say it, but we can’t really prove it to the NTs of the world.

But you and I both know that while we are reading that thing that we don’t get, we are also daydreaming at a thousand miles an hour.

And we’re not doing that instead of reading, we’re doing the two things simultaneously. We’re just paying attention to our thoughts rather than the porridge of words that our efficient minds are decoding and confirming to be dull, one at a time until they’ve all been read.

Alright class

Remember back in school when the teacher asked you if you’d even bothered to read the assigned text and you said yes? Then they asked you to explain it and you suddenly realized that you hadn’t actually assembled the words into sentence structure, you were instead contemplating the required amount of time until people could travel into space like they catch a bus, the infinity of colors, Sammy-Jo’s perfectly red hair and whether there was dating potential there, how loud the clock sounds, why it would be better if chalk boards went back to being black, how to make a watch that changes a few seconds every day so that we wouldn’t have to spring forward and fall back ….

… and the teacher stared at you, waiting for you to explain what you had read, and you stared back with that deer in the headlights look, and just when you were about to formulate an excuse, they asked someone else, which made the rest of the class laugh.

But you?

You did read that text, you read every word. You didn’t assemble those words into sentences and you didn’t assign the meaning of those sentences to any space in memory, but you know you read every word. In fact, if you go back and read the text again you remember reading it, remember the words, remember thinking about the words, they and their order are all so familiar.

So listen to me, if you’re still reading this and haven’t checked out thinking about Sammy-Jo’s red hair and wondering if it’s still red or not, you have a mind that can read and think at the same time, and one that can read and think about something other than what it is reading.

That’s gotta be some kind of amazingness right there, eh?

I mean, if we could just figure out how to use that … have you ever wondered how we could use that?

Apparently I have, now what was I saying?

Have You Ever Wondered?

Kelly Babcock

I was born in the city of Toronto in 1959, but moved when I was in my fourth year of life. I was raised and educated in a rural setting, growing up in a manner I like to refer to as free range. I live on the traditional lands of the Chippewas of Nawash in an area where my family history stretches back 6 or 7 generations and my First Nations friend's families go back hundreds of generations. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 50 and have been both struggling with the new reality and using my discoveries to make my life better. I am a freelance writer and I write two blogs here at Psych Central, one about living with ADHD and one that is a daily positive affirmation that acts as an example of finding the good in as much of my life as I possibly can.

Find out more about me on my website: writeofway.

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APA Reference
Babcock, K. (2019). Have You Ever Wondered?. Psych Central. Retrieved on September 27, 2020, from


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