I’ve been putting this off for too long. (Yeah, you see what I did there.)
Procrastination is fear elevated to an art form, but it isn’t fear every time.
Procrastination is also logic twisted by the ADHD mind so that it seems to be working for you, but it is actually working against you. It seems to be a sensible choice, when it is actually the misuse of our misunderstanding of time.
Procrastination can be a defense mechanism that protects us from the pain of boredom, a pain that neuro-typical people do not understand.
And they understand even less the fact that putting off boring things until it is almost too late can actually make those boring things exciting. Or at the very least, make the circumstances surrounding that completion exciting.
Procrastination can sometimes actually fix situations like that. Don’t start using that as an excuse though, it won’t make your life better, trust me.
Procrastination seems like choosing priorities. And we often make our choices impulsively.
“I’ll do that later because I need to take care of this other thing first that may not be as important, but it’s fun and maybe I’m just not good at knowing what is and what isn’t important and this fun thing might actually be really important so I’d better do that first and I will absolutely, cross-my-heart-and-hope-to-die, swear on a stack of bibles, I promise I will do the important thing that isn’t maybe as important, because, how am I supposed to know that, later.”
And then there are times …
That’s right, times. The time it takes to do this and the time it takes to do that, I don’t do well with figuring out the time it takes, many of us don’t.
So if I have five minutes before I need to file my income tax, maybe I could just quickly rebuild the washing machine first, that shouldn’t take long, and my taxes are simple, right?
Putting things off?
Procrastination has a negative reputation, because it isn’t good. We put things off for various reasons, fair or foul, and then things that wouldn’t have happened … happen.
But despite appearances, we don’t procrastinate on purpose. Yes, we can conform, but not for long. Like most of the aspects of ADHD we need to pick our battles and learn how to make the best of a bad thing.
So if you’re thinking you should start not procrastinating ever again and from this moment on, you might want to hold off on going cold turkey on that one.
The crash, when it comes, will be a mess. You might want to start small. How’s about going back to what you were supposed to be doing before you started reading this?