There are two things I do almost constantly, and those things are not rest and relaxation.
They are also not that much fun for me.
Rehearse is what I do when I’m facing a confrontation or potential confrontation that I’m nervous about.
Meeting someone that I have a conflict with will cause this.
And it’s obsessive
It isn’t a choice I make, I don’t tilt my head to one side, stare off into space and say, “I think I’ll go over the possible outcomes and what I might say maybe … a thousand times or more.”
In fact, I actively try not to do this and turn my mind to other things.
But every time I do that my mind is like, “Yeah, jelly doughnuts, all that filling, those carbs, that reminds me of the thing with the guy that hates you and your way of doing things. How would it go if you met him right now?”
And the other one?
Right, replay. I’ll meet the guy that hates the things I do and he’ll say something like, “Really, that’s how you’re handling this task?” And I’ll say, “Well, ummm, the door lights cigarette wrapper … er.”
But when that confrontation is over, I will replay it a thousand times and each time I will become more eloquent and clever.
And each time I will hear my original reply before I ponder what I should have said.
But there’s this …
There have been times when my rehearsal has prepared me for the confrontation, and my subsequent replay has been a welcome celebration of having righted some situation.
And additionally, in some instances, rehearsal and replay have come together to give me an ability to do something I love very much.
Rehearsal is creation
Rehearsal is where these words I write come from. Rehearsal is where the creation of my radio shows come from.
And, to a lesser extent they are where my television show scripts come from, though they are some what more spontaneous, they are often variations of conversations I have rehearsed in my mind with my guests.
And replay is editing
Going over what I want to say is how I create what I say, and replaying it after I’ve written it often shows the weaknesses in my words or the opportunities to make it better.
There are times when I record the same segment of my radio show five or more times and the last recording is nothing like the first one was.
Like most things, there is a good side to these annoying compulsive habits I have, and I’ve been lucky enough to have found at least part of it.
And I’ve been even luckier that it fits into part of my life, one of the parts I enjoy.
And now, I think I’ve rehearsed and replayed this post often enough.
Consider what things you do that annoy you, that you might be able to use to your advantage if you could get control of them.