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Today I Feel … Beaten

eggs and whisk
… to a froth!

Did you read yesterday’s post? “Today I Feel Organized” was the title.

And if you read it, did you think it was funny? Did you think it was scary? Did you think it was you?

So what happens when we have a day like that? When we feel organized and on the ball, what is the result?

Usually, somewhere along the line the wheels fall off. I mean, you know, something blows up and then the list of everything isn’t worth the paper it was written on.

Did that happen yesterday?

Mmmmmmnnnnno. It didn’t.

Yesterday, as you may recall, I knew I wouldn’t get through my list. But as I indicated, it was prioritized, so what didn’t get done wasn’t important enough to ruin my day.

But really, all that would have been of no consequence if I’d suddenly remember that I left an empty pot on the stove with the heat turned on high.

I did not!

I did things that were distractions, but I knew I would. And knowing that I would, I recognized the distractions for what they were and kept the big things that I wanted to do on the top of my mind.

I kept the list in one place, and returned to it when I completed something.

And the day went pretty smoothly, until …

I got an email

Yeah, you were expecting something more spectacular. But the email was part of some ongoing negotiations for a potential new contract.

In fact it was the go-ahead to work on a sample. And that was big news for me.

But still the day was under control.

Wait, that wasn’t the problem?

Not really. I got it well started and am comfortable that I will meet my deadline.

And I got so many things on my list done that I’m quite happy about that.

I managed to pick up and drop off and fix and drive and move and clean and write all the big things on my list.

I did not …

I didn’t get the dishes done, well, I didn’t get the pots done or the counters cleaned off, I did run the dishwasher but … never got around to emptying it.

I managed to squeeze in a walk and was even ready to go curling if that had happened.

So what happened?

Why do I feel beaten?

I may have overdone it. As simple as that, I’m older and I was working hard and I have ADHD so I don’t slow down easily.

And I didn’t slow down even after I went to sleep. I was going like my usual hyperactive self in my dreams through much of the night. (At least it feels like that.)

And then I lay awake, trying to get back to sleep.

So today …

So today I feel beaten.

But yesterday?

Yesterday I won!

Today I Feel … Beaten

Kelly Babcock

I was born in the city of Toronto in 1959, but moved when I was in my fourth year of life. I was raised and educated in a rural setting, growing up in a manner I like to refer to as free range. I live in an area where my family history stretches back 6 or more generations. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 50 and have been both struggling with the new reality and using my discoveries to make my life better. I write two blogs here at Psych Central, one about having ADHD and one that is a daily positive affirmation that acts as an example of finding the good in as much of my life as I possibly can.

Find out more about me on my website: writeofway.

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APA Reference
Babcock, K. (2018). Today I Feel … Beaten. Psych Central. Retrieved on October 17, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/adhd-man/2018/10/today-i-feel-beaten/

 

Last updated: 10 Oct 2018
Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 10 Oct 2018
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