I often feel like I’m easily distracted.
I know, no big surprise, right?
But the thing is that in the heat of the moment of distraction I don’t feel like I’m unjustified in being distracted.
In that moment when my focus switches so easily from one thing to another one with seemingly no valid connection between the two, I am perfectly justified in doing just that.
You see, the thing that makes it right, or makes it seem right, is passion.
Is that a thing?
Good question. The answer is, yes, passion is a thing. But please don’t ask me to define it.
The problem is that I don’t know if my ADHD is the cause of the passion, or if passion is the cause of my ADHD taking over my focus and leading me away.
If I have a valid interest in something then does the passion stem from that interest or is the interest caused by the passion?
Maybe it doesn’t matter?
Let’s examine an example. Politics. Yes, a dirty, multi syllabic word. The discussion of the validity of some one person seeking the responsibility to represent me and others in the governing of the dispense of our communally collected wealth earmarked for the upkeep and betterment of our community.
Yes, that causes passion in me.
And yes, it distracts me.
The thing is …
I don’t love politics. In fact it often upsets me. So using the word passionate to describe my interest in politics seems counter intuitive.
But I can’t say it’s the wrong word. I’m passionate about what I think should be done, what I believe shouldn’t be done, and how I feel those things should be accomplished.
So come election time, which it is here in my Canadian province of Ontario, my work day gets a bit longer as the political posts and articles that cross my desktop increase in number and intensity.
Distraction increases proportionally. And I have to respond.
I don’t know why, but I know that I must pass judgement on everything I read. I must pass judgement and make my opinion known.
Well, I often write out my opinion and then, after careful editing and due consideration … I erase it without publishing it.
Yes, exactly, we’re talking about distraction here. Whether I publish my thoughts or not, I was distracted from whatever I was doing long enough to pen the rebuttal or support.
And the thing that drove me to do that … was passion.
In control, or not?
And while it seems like I am in control because I judiciously keep many of my words to myself, I clearly cannot control my distractions.
So passion or interest, it doesn’t matter. I cannot quite control the distraction. Only the output. And even that isn’t always under control
And that’s called impulse.
And that’s a topic for another day.