I’ve never lit a candle outside. I’m old, but not that old.
But I’ve seen moths around an outdoor light. They seem crazed by the light.
Darting, diving, colliding, throwing themselves repeatedly at the bulb, beating themselves sensless.
That scares me.
You see, I’m always looking for analogies to ADHD in order to explain what it’s like to people who are open minded enough to ask.
And when it comes to describing how those of us with an over abundance of Vitamin H (hyperactivity) live … that moth to a flame thing … yeah.
I get too close and then veer off. But am immediately attracted back again.
Or to another light. It’s single mindedness and yet, not.
It’s not exactly a perfect analogy.
Because the perfect analogy would have a whole bunch of lights for me to fly amongst.
And probably they’d be blinking on and off, or occluded on one side so that I could only see them from one direction each, but each one would show in a different direction and they’d each show toward each other so that as soon as I was flying toward one of them I’d be able to see …
You know … a good analogy should be simple.
I tell you what …
I’m hosting a radio show. I only do one episode every four weeks, but that just means I don’t get to hit a rhythm, I have to kind of learn it all over again each time. I’m also hosting a television show. That one is intermittent and also it kind of is the same and yet different for each episode.
I am still writing, this blog, the other blog here, an post every few weeks for my writers’ group, another one for a local website, and the occasional post for another ADHD site.
And I do IT work for a couple of sites. I enjoy that.
Also, I edit for various sites and people.
And I’m a singer/songwriter.
I do odd jobs.
I also cook and clean, though not as well as I likely should.
And I like to relax when I can.
*Sound of needle scratching across record
The truth is that I don’t relax unless someone makes me do it.
I flit like a moth from one light to the next and then the next and the next and then back again.
My analogy is too complicated to be a good example of an analogy, but dammit, my life is too complicated to be analoged by some simple ten or twelve word analogy.
And man, I need to relax soon … but just for a bit, got too much to do to take too big a break.
Wait, was that a candle I just saw flicker?