I don’t get asked often, and when I do it’s usually by someone who suspects that they too have ADHD, but still, I sometimes get asked.
“What’s it like having ADHD?”
And, although I’m not really a talkative guy (blatant lie), I always try to answer honestly and truthfully.
And in all truth and honesty, I sometimes wonder if I hit all the notes in the symphony of cacophony that is ADHD.
So I thought I’d try writing it all down and having it as a go-to the next time I’m asked. And lucky you, I thought the best place to write it all down was here on my blog.
It’s like having the energy to do a million things, but the time to only do a thousand of them and not having a list of which of those things should be done first or in what order.
It’s like there are a dozen voices in your head all talking about different things but taking their turns because they’re all you just skipping from topic to topic.
It’s like knowing exactly what you wanted to say when you started talking out loud about something very important, but after you’ve clarified six of the intricate details, you’ve completely forgotten what you were talking about, for the tenth time today.
It’s like finding the basket of laundry that you were taking to the laundry room first thing this morning, on your way to bed tonight, then lying awake for hours wondering what all you actually did all day.
It’s like finishing writing a five thousand word story and closing your laptop after being in your office for six hours and when you go to the kitchen your wife says, “So, did you finish your income tax you were working on?”
It’s like getting home from the grocery store with three bags of groceries and then remembering you only went for milk and bread, and you got neither of them.
It’s like …
Listen, it’s like all those things. Having ADHD means you have the symptoms and they are frequent enough and intense enough that they impact your life negatively.
But there’s something else. There’s something you won’t hear me talk about a lot, but it needs to be said.
So I’m saying it!
When I was unaware of what I had and unaware that others (the NTs) weren’t like me, I thought my world and the way I experienced it was common to all humankind. But now that I have put on the glasses of diagnosis and I can see the lines of demarcation between them and us, I see something I never noticed before.
Because of the way that the world is described by people, I’m getting a sense that we perceive this same world differently.
And one of the most wonderful (for us) differences is, that we seem to have the ability to see the world as a wonderland of amazing things in rainbow colors and laser lights.
We seem to see our lives and our purpose here as things of beauty … as long as we are free from trying to conform to a world that requires us to fit in with the 80 to 90 percent of the people that have organized it to be optimized for them.
And this is a good thing?
You know what? I’ll take the few random moments I have of viewing the world as a wonderland.
And knowing that I have this ability, this super power if you will, means that I have been able to find ways to see this wonderland world in all it’s rainbow plaid laser luxury even when I’m under the oppressive thumb of conformity.
So while I don’t recommend that anyone think of ADHD as a gift, and I don’t really want the Neuro-typicals to be jealous, I really do have to say when I’m asked what it’s like to have ADHD ….
… that it is a wonderment when you least expect it to be.