I am too busy to do anything else. Well, I could maybe squeeze in this one post I guess.
But I really am busy.
Okay, truthfully, I was always busy. But it haven’t always felt like it.
So what constitutes feeling busy for someone with ADHD?
I get up every day and hit the ground running pretty much. I stop occasionally to get my bearings, though that usually results in my just changing direction and doing something else.
I, like others with the hyperactive subtype of ADHD, am a dynamo. I’m a gyroscope constantly humming, though I’m one with a pronounced wobble and no proper stand to spin on.
So I’ve heard, and have objectively observed, that I am a busy boy.
If I have no list, I don’t feel busy.
Okay, yes, there is a list in my head, it’s three items long. That list is whatever I’m doing now, what I would like to be doing now, and what I should be doing now.
And in all fairness, that last item is often forgotten for long periods of time and the first two switch back and forth and change constantly.
And I’m fine with that
Sure, lots of things I’m supposed to get done do get done. But they often get done in passing, and sometimes as an afterthought.
And always there are things that weren’t on my list and probably shouldn’t be, that I do as I go. Things that take up my time and take more of it than I realize or would ever admit to if I did know.
And still …
As busy as I get I don’t necessarily feel busy, even with all of that going on.
But, I currently have eight different jobs on the go. They don’t always happen at set times, though at least three of them are time sensitive things.
Yesterday I worked at five different jobs, today I have five at least and might have to work for a sixth as well.
And none of that is my full time job as house spouse.
Busy is …?
When you have ADHD and you find yourself doing eight different jobs, you ask yourself how you got this busy.
But the answer is that you always were this busy, just not in a structured way.
So the real question is, why do you suddenly realize you’re busy.
And the real answer is … you’re doing things you care about. You’ve gone and taken on responsibilities.
And we do that
When you have ADHD you have a hard time saying no to things. You have a hard time not volunteering for things. And you have an especially hard time saying no to paid job offers.
And since I’m going to be busy anyway, I feel like I might just as well feel like I’m busy, right?
Now I have to go get ready for my next job. And start some laundry too.
I’ll be back here on Tuesday. See you then.