Over six years ago I started writing this blog. I’ve written three posts a week since the beginning. I’ve never published less than that, and I don’t intend to change that any time soon.
I’m not burning out, oddly enough, and I’ve gotten over the feeling that I’m saying the same things in different ways. You see, like all good fables or lessons or stories with morals, different versions of each of them reach out to, and speak to different people.
So I keep talking, I keep telling my stories and even though I occasionally repeat myself, I’m not troubled by that anymore.
So that’s a kind of success, right?
Of course it is
When I first began writing about ADHD here, I had a problem with success. This post from October of 2011 talks about how success would foul up my life in a very real way.
And while I feel like Man of DistrAction is successful so far, the reason that I haven’t succumbed to the pitfall of success/failure that that older post talks about is that this blog hasn’t succeeded as a finished project yet.
It ain’t over!
So the deal is that I don’t recognize successfully running, only successfully completed, as a success.
In fact a successfully running project is more of a stressor. I’m obligated to try to reproduce that success on a regular basis.
And though I’m getting good at that, I feel like it should be easier by now … and it isn’t really.
But I continue to succeed
I do keep going, and I’m not sure what I’d do if I didn’t write these posts. I think I’d spend a lot of time formulating ideas for them in my head and then grumbling about how much time my mind is wasting.
And in truth, the idea of not doing this makes me a little uneasy, I kind of define myself by this blog now. I’m not exactly famous, but there are people who know me because of this blog, and I like that.
When I started here, the title was a little tongue in cheek joke about being someone who was easily distracted, but was super at it. Now, being the Man Of DistrAction has become something I want to be, still a bit of a joke, but an honest and helpful attempt at seeing all sides of this insidious disorder, including the funny and fun sides.
And I will continue …
I promise I’ll keep trying to succeed.
If you’re following me, and wondering how long someone with ADHD can keep this up, and especially if you’re cheering me on, let’s just see how long this can last, shall we?
Perhaps we could meet back here in a year to review? Or maybe not in a year, but when I remember … whenever that will be.
Maybe I should put that in my calendar?