Staying with our theme of time for one last post, I’m going to try to outline how a lack of time perception destroys the ADHD day.
Yes, there are obvious things to discuss, maybe all of these points are obvious, but I’m going to explore them anyway.
And I’m going to discuss them with the uninformed, non-ADHD person in mind. Let’s talk, shall we?
No, wait …
This is my blog. I’ll talk, you listen.
For some inexplicable reason, you have been saddled with an ability to gauge time. I have not.
And as I explained on Wednesday, it isn’t just how long something would take to do, it’s also how long it takes for a set amount of time to pass.
What a drag
For us, for me, an hour can be too short. Or it can be too long. And it could be the same hour, I could feel both those feelings about the next hour.
And additionally, I can note that I have an hour to spare until something scheduled will happen, and I will attempt to do three hours worth of stuff in that hour.
“Yes, but you learn, right?”
Nope. Well, I learn that that could happen. I don’t learn how to gauge time any better.
Being aware that I am not good at filling an hour with only an hour’s worth of stuff may just as easily result in my deciding to do something that might take seven minutes to accomplish, and I will have thought it would take the whole hour or most of it.
And why is it …
How do we always get ourselves into situations where we are doing something for the first and probably only time? I can’t answer that one yet.
Perhaps it’s because we are always getting ourselves into unusual situations and extraction is our responsibility.
And likely, we know a shortcut … one that will only take 85 of our 60 available minutes.
Time is a mystery
For us, time truly is a mystery. We have to start doing things with the expectation that we will eventually get those things done. But we also have to be prepared to discover that they may take a day or five minutes.
And when either of those things happen, we need to be ready to move on to the next thing.
Keep the trains on time
I don’t remember the last time I had a schedule. I’ve kind of given up on the thought. I have some deadlines for writing, mostly self imposed and mostly they are times when I start things, not times that I have to be finished by.
And when I have had deadlines for finishing things, I always get anxious over them.
I’ll often finish up early and then go over what I’ve done incessantly until I’ve almost missed my deadline.
I’m no superman
So if I’ve managed to convey anything in these last four posts about time, I’m hoping that it is the simple fact that time is something that makes those of us with ADHD weak and crazy.
Time, you might say, is our Kryptonite. And look, it’s everywhere. Imagine what our super powers would be if time didn’t exist.