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Numb And Number

I'm the number one
Maybe even the nummiest

I can think of any number of times I was oblivious to the obvious. It happens quite frequently.

And there’s a sick feeling I get in the pit of my stomach when that occurs.

It’s kind of like watching an accident about to happen and being unable to do anything about it.

Suddenly, people are looking at me like I have a third eye.

And I wish I had a third eye, ’cause then I might have seen whatever it is that I must be missing that’s making them look at me that way.

Oblivion

The other day, I was working away and was writing something about being numb. I don’t remember what it was I was writing, someone asked me about it later.

And the thing they asked me was if I was aware that I had used the word “number” to indicate a “more numb: condition.

No, no I was not …

Some years ago I was in a walk-a-thon to raise money to help fight cancer. The concept was a relay, we were on a team, one of us was always walking. The teams had names. I don’t remember ours …

But I do remember a team who had a big banner that said something about “Heart & Sole …”

Pretty clever?

Too clever, I guess. I didn’t get it. I was amazed that no one had noticed that they had spelled “soul” wrong. I almost went up to their encampment and told them of their mistake.

I was this close …

Why didn’t I?

Probably the same reason I didn’t get the pun on the word “sole.” I have ADHD.

I noticed it when I was walking. We walked a circuit around the different teams encampments, and when I got back to my teams spot, I had already forgotten. Each time I walked by, I thought about it, but I was busy walking.

And when did I clue in?

Ha. I didn’t. Well, I didn’t clue in then. Nor did I figure it out for a few weeks.

I even told some people about it, and they seemed confused by what I was saying. I assumed they were confused by how anyone could make the mistake they had made.

Turns out …

Yep. They were confused by me not getting it.

Now in fairness, I assumed that sole meant fish. It took me a few weeks to realize they were talking shoe sole, as in walking shoe sole …

The delay switch

Yes, the switch on the light bulb in my mind was on extreme delay that day … er, those weeks.

I’m often in a state of mental numbness, but at that time I seemed to be number. That is, I was more numb.

Ah hell, I was the numbest.

Numb And Number

Kelly Babcock

I was born in the city of Toronto in 1959, but moved when I was in my fourth year of life. I was raised and educated in a rural setting, growing up in a manner I like to refer to as free range. I live in an area where my family history stretches back 6 or more generations. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 50 and have been both struggling with the new reality and using my discoveries to make my life better. I write two blogs here at Psych Central, one about having ADHD and one that is a daily positive affirmation that acts as an example of finding the good in as much of my life as I possibly can.

Find out more about me on my website: writeofway.

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APA Reference
Babcock, K. (2017). Numb And Number. Psych Central. Retrieved on July 16, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/adhd-man/2017/10/whats-your-number/

 

Last updated: 6 Oct 2017
Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 6 Oct 2017
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