I Hate Being Sick
There are some things that are universal. Whether you have ADHD or not, very few people like being sick.
I’ll admit that there have been times when I’ve been under the weather and felt like I appreciated the excuse to take a break, but I’ve never really enjoyed being ill.
And I confess that being sick makes me appreciate things like slippers, sweaters, blankets, soup, and other things of comfort, but that’s not the same as enjoying being sick.
There have been times when I’ve had colds that were accompanied by head congestion and that has altered my auditory perception of the sound of my own voice. It’s made it sound deeper.
And that, coupled with the raspiness, has caused my voice to sound sexier inside my head. And whenever I’ve had to perform while under the weather, I’ve always gotten a lot of mileage out of that condition when I’m chatting with the audience between songs.
But in general?
Yeah, no. There’s nothing nice about being sick that could make up for being sick. I think everyone can agree that feeling like you are not at your best is not the best. Not even close.
But there is a difference between people with ADHD and people without ADHD when they’re sick. At least for the hyperactive ones among us. When I’m sick, I hate, Hate, HATE, HATE being unable to do stuff.
It seriously drives me crazy.
The oddity that is us
When someone with ADHD tells you they can’t do something because of their ADHD, they aren’t usually saying they can’t do something, they’re saying they can’t do “nothing,”
“I can’t stand in lineups.” “I go crazy in traffic jams.” “I hate waiting rooms.” These are all examples of doing nothing.
When I’m sick and can’t do stuff, it’s like I’m being punished in the worst way possible.
And another thing …
Many of us were diagnosed later in life. So we’ve spent a lot of our lives trying to convince ourselves, or having others try to convince us that there’s nothing wrong.
So for many of us, living in denial of being, shall we say, “out of sorts?” is something we’ve gotten used to.
And even when we’re obviously ill, it’s often the easiest thing for us to at least convince ourselves that it’s not as bad as it seems, not as bad as it actually is.
Thank goodness my ADHD is the combined subtype. I may be bedridden when I’m sick, but in my daydreaming mind I can be in a thousand places doing a thousand things all before lunch time.
And additionally, there’s my computer. I live a large part of my life online anymore, and no one can tell I’m sick there unless I let them know.
But still, when I’m sick, there is one more ADHD problem that is a bit of a game changer.
And that would be?
As I recover, I’m likely to be up and about, doing things, long before my body has had enough time to heal.
Worse yet, because I’ve been restrained for a while, I’m like a loaded spring, ready to leap as soon as the release is tripped. And that can’t be good for me either.
It’s really not much wonder we make horrible patients.
I’ve made a lot of progress in my life with a lot of aspects of my ADHD, and even though I’m a better sick person than I used to be, I still, really, really, really don’t like being sick.
Babcock, K. (2017). I Hate Being Sick. Psych Central. Retrieved on April 24, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/adhd-man/2017/10/i-hate-being-sick/