Yeah, on second thought, don’t tell me.
I find it absolutely amazing that I learned to tell time so easily. But I haven’t yet learned the significance of time.
I mean, I get that it passes, and I know there’s only so much of it. I know there’s lots more coming, but others have things that they need to do at certain times so I’m supposed to get my things done in a timely manner.
But how much time I need to do any given thing? I’m lost on that …
How many things can I get done in a set amount of time? I don’t know that either.
You’d think that things would be in neat packages when it comes to time. Why weren’t they organized in ten minute chunks, eh? Then I’d know I could put six things on my list for every hour I have in my day.
Okay, no, I couldn’t. Because, symptoms of ADHD! See, the things that interest me I’ll go slower on because I’m enjoying them. Also, I’d be curious about how things work and be redoing stuff to try to figure out the mechanics of it.
Also, the things I don’t find interesting will take longer because they … well, they are boring as hell and other things will distract me.
And yet …
I’m always amazed at how much I actually get done in an hour. I look at something and think, “Crap! That’s gonna take forever to do!” and I lean into it and ‘Boom!,’ it’s done.
And the extra stuff that I do just amazes me too. I mean, I do something and while I’m doing it, a dozen minor distractions will lead me to do two dozen other things and when the first thing gets done I’ve done 25 things.
Lists are kinda useless
What??!? Never. Well, okay, they are useful if I follow them, and I try to do that, but at the end of the day if I look at them and say, “This is what I did.” that’s usually a lie in two ways.
I rarely complete the list, and it doesn’t show all the extra things I did when I was supposed to be doing the things I didn’t do.
Maybe I should …
What? Write the list at the end of the day to itemize all the things I actually did? Well …. no.
I’d never remember them all. And I’d never remember all the things I needed to do when the day started.
The best thing is to write my list on half of the space my paper has, and then add the extra things I do as I go along. That way, at least at the end of the day the one thing I’ll know I did was … make a list.