Yep. I have a million things to do. And that used to overwhelm me.
I’ve got to find a new truck cap for winter. The cap off my old truck won’t fit the new one, so I’m driving around with my bed exposed.
And I have to make dinner for tonight. I mean, that’s often part of my daily tasks, so no big deal, but still, it’s on the list.
And I have to clean the kitchen, cut some grass, edit someone else’s blog post, write this one and the other one I write every day …
The list goes on and on. I’ve got laundry to do, and a bed to make, breakfast dishes to wash, a kitchen that’s in need of a general cleaning, and a garage that needs some organizing as well. There’s a barbecue that needs cleaning, and two more that need to be carted off to the dump, once I find a replacement for them.
And speaking of finding a replacement for the two dead or dying barbecues, there are lots of things that I need to pick up, soap, insurance forms, some cleaning supplies, food (I mean, where does all the food go? It’s like we’re constantly eating it!).
Yeah, I used to be overwhelmed by how much I had to do. But something’s changed now. And I no longer let that feeling of being overwhelmed get to me.
I’m like, “Uh-uh, Mr. Overwhelmishness! You just stay over there in your corner and chew your own bone. Leave my conscience alone!”
And that works?
Well, it isn’t quite that simple. and yet, it’s actually simpler than that.
I have a diagnosis of ADHD. And if we look through all that that means, we find the rapidly firing brain is one of the symptoms.
It goes like crazy, man …
And it’s constantly looking for new things to think about. I mean, my brain goes really fast and hates being bored. So of course it’s looking for things to ponder.
And part of that is that it has figured out how to look ahead and see what’s coming up in my future.
So … lists?
Oh yeah. Lots of lists. Lists on paper, lists on electronic devices, lists in my head.
And even when I make a list on paper or on my phone or tablet, I still keep a copy of it in my mind as fodder for my brain to re-digest.
And that one big list?
Ha ha. Yes. That one huge, never ending, constantly growing one called “To-Do” is the biggest and most cumbersome of them all.
And sometimes it’s the most confusing one also. I mean, right at the top of my mental to-do list is the task, “Make a list.”
But seriously …
Knowing that my mind works so fast, and reaches so far, has made me realize that parts of my life are no different than the lives of the neuro-typical people in the world.
I just see more things to do in my future, think about them more.
And the overwhelming thing is …
Yeah, the overwhelming thing would be if I let the grandeur of my to-do list freeze me, render me inactive.
Because then that list would become overwhelming. In fact, before I figured this stuff out, it did, it was.
I’ve got lots to do. And this post was one of the things on my list. Now it’s done.