I’ve been thinking about ADHD lately. Not all the time, just now and then. And not like on a schedule or like half an hour a day or two hours a week. I just think about it when it comes up.
And I have to say, that it’s annoying as hell. It’s almost as annoying as the random questions, “What did I come in here for?” and, “What was I supposed to be doing?”
And actually, now that I’ve mentioned those two annoying questions, I can tell you that whenever I ask them, I think about ADHD. But not just when I ask them.
Ah, yes, well, take this morning for example. I was writing a post for another blog and there was a knock at my door. It was a man from the electric company informing me that the power would be going down in ten to 15 minutes. Well, my computer wouldn’t be phased but my internet would cut out when that happened, so I hurried up and got my post published in the allotted time. I’d almost finished it when the knock came.
Without power, I headed out onto the deck to cook breakfast on the barbecue, hardly a hardship, ate in a lounge chair and since the power was back on I went inside to brush my teeth. I thought about my ADHD and how it affects oral hygiene.
As I was brushing my teeth I remembered that I had an appointment with my dental hygienist. I checked my phone calendar and it said that the appointment was for tomorrow, but that didn’t seem right.
I called the office and they told me that yes, my appointment was in 20 minutes. I thought about my ADHD and time management.
“I’m on my way.” I said as I grabbed my keys and headed out the door. I knew I could make it, but I wondered why I had put the appointment in my phone for the wrong day. I thought about my ADHD and my organizational skills.
I got half way there, I only had enough time to get there, no time for anything else, and I suddenly remembered I was supposed to leave my door unlocked and a parcel for a friend just inside the door. I had done neither. I thought about my ADHD and how often I let my friends down by forgetting things.
When I got to the dental clinic I tried to call my friend even though I knew she’d be driving. I got no answer. I tried several times from the waiting room, and when I was called in to the office I texted my friend.
My cleaning was quick and I was on the road home when my friend called me. She was running late and had just gotten to my place. I thought about ADHD … hers.
I told her I was five minutes away and I was so sorry and she just laughed. I’m assuming she was thinking about ADHD … mine.
Long story short, since my diagnosis I’ve thought about ADHD at almost every turn of the screw, every flick of the switch, every tic-toc of the second hand.
And to some extent, it’s quite comforting. It has made me able to plan a bit better, cope a bit better, be more aware.
And since I can’t turn off the ADHD, I guess I’m okay with being unable to turn off the thought of it also.
Think about that one, won’t you?