People sometimes tell me they have trouble keeping up with me. Well, not so often anymore, since my body has gotten older on me. But still, some people think I get around a lot.
And to tell the truth, for various reasons I don’t always tell people everything I do. Sometimes I forget things I did, sometimes they weren’t really things to be proud of, and sometimes I just don’t think some folks can handle hearing about the madness of my days and weeks.
Yep, I’m still a whirlwind, for my age
And I’m also busy in a quieter way. My mind is constantly whirling around. The joy of having the combined type of ADHD is that I’m as capable of killing time by daydreaming at a wild rate of speed as I am of physically flitting from distraction to distraction. I’m always busy, whether you see it or not.
And whether it looks like it or not, people have trouble keeping up with me.
But sometimes it’s me that can’t keep up with me
Well, that’s not really the right way to say that. Sometimes things that should be done don’t get done because I’ve worn myself ragged with things that didn’t really need doing, but that I really needed to do.
And sometimes things that needed doing are just forgotten about until it’s too late for them to be done.
That sounds like the making of another ADHD paradox
I suppose it’s really odd that I’m too busy to get things done. Someone who is always on the go should be always ahead of the game.
But the distractions, hyper-activeness, poor time management skills, and the inability to prioritize that are all parts of ADHD make this situation quite common.
Here’s how …
The distraction problems are obvious, I may start out with good intentions, but end up doing something that wasn’t on my list. I’m way ahead on the busy scale, but falling behind anyway.
Being the hyper-active sort, I can’t sit still, but I don’t always have an idea of what could be being done to improve situations, how time could be used to its best advantage.
Being poor at time management means I don’t always do things in the best order. It also means that I don’t always reserve enough time for some things. alternately I’ll put others off, sometimes indefinitely, because I have an inflated idea of how much time they will require.
As to prioritizing, I often feel like I’m accomplishing a lot, and am pleased enough with myself that I don’t “check in” with any to-do list. And I often prioritize things based on the feeling of excitement that the item generates in me, not based on how important its accomplishment is.
And at the end of the day …
I often wear myself out so that by the end of the day when there are still things that need doing, I’ve expired.
Oh well, maybe I’ll catch up tomorrow, if I’m not too busy to.