I get that I’m a busy guy because I have a busy mind. I’m okay with that.
And I’m okay with the fact that I don’t finish my projects because my mind is always leading me away to begin others.
You see, I need lots of things going on to keep me from dying of boredom. And before you say that no one has ever died of boredom, are you sure?
But at some point in time, I get overwhelmed with all my projects.
I currently have two books on the go, writing, not reading. I have five or six books that I’m in the middle of reading.
Back to the writing, I’m also working on a book of poetry, and I’m always writing blogs.
Additionally I’m writing songs, one has been recorded by a professional group and I’m excited about that. But now I’m considering recording my own music. People in the industry locally are telling me I should. And I think that, if nothing else, a disc would be a good way to promote my songs to other musicians who might consider recording my work.
In the mean time, I’ve gotten addicted to eating, so I’m having to do work that has a more interactive remuneration component to it. ie: I’m wanting to do things I get paid for immediately.
So, as well as doing editing for web sites and for other writers, I’m doing drywall repairs, fixing plumbing and building small outbuildings. I’m able to do a lot of things that aren’t common household tasks but that are not worth calling a tradesman in to do.
Of course, if you have a job for a tradesman, I’d be happy to do that also, as long as it’s something I’m experienced in.
… but wait, I was talking about needing a break. And I do, kind of. I need a break from worrying about things. I need a break from thinking negative thoughts about all the things I start. I need a break from getting frustrated with my own ability to overwhelm myself.
I need a break from worrying about money, and work, and expenses. I need a break from feeling that I’m letting the world down when I’m really only letting myself down.
And I’m not letting myself down in any way that would be normal, I’m doing it by frustrating myself and overwhelming myself and judging myself to be inadequate.
But work? I don’t need a break from work. I need more work. Got anything you need done?