I was going to write a post about New Years Resolutions. Then I thought I’d write about what I would have done differently over the last year. Then I started thinking I should write a post about what I think I would have done differently throughout my life If I’d had an ADHD diagnosis as a child.
Well, that sounds like a good post, and I think I’ll write it … some other day. Today, I’ve decided on something else. Today isn’t for resolutions or regrets, today is for accomplishments!
Today’s post is about things in my life that I wouldn’t change. And it starts with my taking on the job of writing this blog. Some of you know I wrote a blog before this, the Tao Of Taylor, under the name Taylor McKinlay. I was very close to sticking with that name here, but in the end, honesty won out. Not that Taylor McKinlay isn’t a name I come by honestly, it belongs to me as surely as Kelly Babcock does, but Kelly Babcock is my legal name.
And I want to be honest here. I love this job and I think honesty is the biggest part of it. I love connecting with people who find out they’re not alone when they read my blog. I may be frustrated and tired of writing at times, but I will never tire of hearing people say they have found their tribe here. And that won’t happen, that is to say, no one will recognize their life in a blog of lies.
ADHDers need friends …
Next on the list of things I wouldn’t change is my friends. I have no idea how I would have made it through this past year without them holding me up when I didn’t have the strength to stand. Thank you, everyone of you.
My poison and my pleasure
Another thing that I would never change is my ADHD. Okay, there are parts of it that I would get rid of in a heartbeat, but if I had to swap out my entire brain for a “normal” one … “No Deal, Howie!”
Why? Well firstly, my brain makes me a funny guy, and I like to make people laugh. That makes me feel happy. Maybe it isn’t much, but that’s okay, we all do what we can.
Secondly, I like to solve problems, find the ways no one else can see to fix things. I like being the hero that comes to the rescue when the chips are down. And we ADHDers are good at that. Never mind that we’re often the cause of the problem we’re called on to fix, we’ll fix it.
Thirdly, I like being able to find perspectives that others might want to know about and bring those to them (kind of full circle, back to the blog again).
Am I crazy?
This may sound wrong, but another thing I wouldn’t change is my anxiety. Yeah, that sounds pretty stupid. I could do without the worry, and the chest pains that accompany it, but it’s my anxiety that makes me respond to my emails promptly and it’s my anxiety that makes me punctual. ADHD is a whole bubbling cauldron of dichotomies, one of them is that some of us are always late and some of us are ridiculously punctual. Another is that some of us are hyper-organized while some of us are a mess. I’d like to tell you that I’m hyper organized … but as I said, I want to be honest here. I really should confess that I’m not organized at all, but this is supposed to be a post about accomplishments, so I ain’t gonna confess and you can’t make me …
The last thing I’d say I wouldn’t want to change is about the year 2011. The thing about 2011 that I wouldn’t want to change is … that it’s over. And none too soon.
Happy New Year, everybody, I’ll see you on the other side of the weekend.