It occurred to me the other day that I had not thought about myself in terms of excessive guilt, shame and disgust for many months. This coincided around about the time I started my new job working with self-actualised people in the mental health field and making long overdue decisions about what sort of people I surrounded myself with in my private life.
I never seemed to have the discriminatory powers to know who was good for me, who was not good for me and who was perfectly evil in my life. I also put strict boundaries around certain family members. There are people in my life determined to make me feel shame and guilt because that is what they do best.