My crying always has to do with loss. Usually a person. The tears are actually the end of a long period of difficult circumstances that I cannot accept. They are pent-up emotions of feelings I don’t express spontaneously. Over time, they explode. I see a therapist regularly. A toothache prompted me to cancel a visit last month. My eyes welled up with tears a couple of weeks after, but I stuffed them back. Of course, they were bursting to pour, so one nite while hooked up to my CPAP machine, a few trickled down my cheek and I decided to shut off the CPAP, took the mask off, and let the tears flow forcefully out. My hubby asked what was wrong and I told him. He wasn’t sympathetic. He had a traumatic brain injury a year/a half ago, so his long term memory is shot. Why do I let loss linger after all these years or is it s’pose to go on ‘n on ‘n on infini…?

Good article, Sara

i’d meditate on the symbolic meaning of cleaning if it was me. it can’t be a childhood thing since you used to clean things without a problem. you have to look at events that happened right before it started to affect you. the cleaning could be symbolic of a mess that accumulated in a situation where you arent ready to work on it yet. cleaning shows an appreciation. like if you really appreciate an object you keep it clean. the house often represents yourself. different aspects of your personality. do you feel upset at cleaning in other places?

Women are encouraged to cry in our society. So that is how they express themselves. If your crying alot at least your letting it out and not holding it in. Thats a good thing.
On the other hand I (health care worker) have a lot of female patients that cry alot and do so in an attempt to get my attention. Often times one or two emotional female patients will monopolize all my time and my male patients don’t get the time from me they deserve. I have to be guarded and keep in mind that all my patients deserve equal amount of care, even if they don’t cry.

I have never, ever once in my adult cried for the purpose of being manipulative, and I find the above statement more than anything, sad.

crying and laughing for me are closely connected and i often feel they can, or could be interchanged.

I know this man, the father of my kids, who always starts laughing after sex. It’s the cutest, and most precious expression of just pure joy, and usually also the only time he so openly laughs, and is so ‘real’.

Thanks Sonia, i have a lot of thoughts about what you said but am too tired to organize them now.

Thank you for this beautiful expression, it is not onlyu about the housework but about your inner need to find fulfillment in all that you do, maybe the house cleaning is just one of those things that no matter how much love, care and time we put into it it’s never done, or tomorrow something will need to be done, it’s like a reflection of this great life cycle that we are going through and without spiritual knowledge it just doesn’t make sense. i think a clean house is a beautiful place to be and a relection most probably of an inner purity, maybe you should pray to God that He sends you a gifted teacher in your chosen spiritual path to guide and love you and help you understand the deeper hidden meaning of life, before it’s too late. i pray that you find guidance and not just material answers, real inner knowledge and the door of real love to open to you. and thanks you for keeping your house clean, i’m sure many people and your family have always appreciated it