A Descent Into Madness
C.R. writes: When I read this piece, Things Fall Apart: My Descent Into Madness, a woman’s experience with mental illness, which began when she was a girl, I paused, and read it again.
The language of the title is a clue: This personal story is set in a place and time where pop culture holds little sway; the family and school life of a religious Jewish girl from a couple of decades ago.
I found Shani Silverstein’s piece moving and wanted to share it with you.*
“I remember repeating a little chant to myself as a teenager and young adult: “Open your eyes, world, and see / Not the illness I despise / But me.
“At the time I was struggling to cope with the confusing and often terrifying reality of mental illness in a world that seemed unready or unable to see the vulnerable, frightened girl beneath the myriad strange and confusing symptoms. How could I explain that despite the fact that I sometimes behaved in a way that most people dismissed as crazy, I was just as perplexed — and probably more frightened — than any observer could be by a mind that seemed to have betrayed me, thoughts that rushed out of control in unpredictable ways, and an increasing conviction that I had lost my mind forever. Above all, how could I let people know that though I appeared to have gone over the edge, to a place where “regular people” never venture, I was still a person whom they could relate to, if only they could understand?”
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Sunset in Brazil photo by Jean Carneiro.
& C.R. Zwolinski, R. (2012). A Descent Into Madness. Psych Central. Retrieved on May 4, 2015, from http://blogs.psychcentral.com/therapy-soup/2012/10/a-descent-into-madness/