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New To Meditation? Try These Tiny Stepping Stones From Headspace

While I've played around with meditation before, I never really held myself to its committed practice. I'd get excited about it for a few days, cozying up with Meditation Oasis podcasts after dinner, but then I'd drop the habit out of boredom or inattention. Or both.

But for the past ten days, I've been using a meditation app called Headspace to get me meditating more habitually....
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Video: Earthquake On Live TV? These Anchors Calmly Own It

Last night before bed, I found myself putzing around on my iPhone on my living room floor.

It's a nightly thing: Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Reddit. Rinse and repeat if I'm still not sleepy.

But I was caught off guard while scrolling mindlessly through my Facebook news feed -- suddenly, I felt the floor shake.

Always on high alert, I jumped. What was that?

After a moment or two of frozen uncertainty, I audibly exhaled when I realized the source of the shaking: a heavy diesel truck, barreling down my street.
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A Panic Attack On Live TV? ABC News Anchor Dan Harris Reflects

[Warning: this video might (obviously) be triggering for those of you with panic disorder. It definitely put me a bit on edge. It does end on a happy note, if that's of any consolation.]

Have you ever had a panic attack in front of a large audience?

I've had my (unfairly large) share of panic attacks -- but most of them were only in front of small audiences, like the gaggle of shoppers who were behind me in line at CVS when I doubled over in dizziness at checkout.

(The moments between that first scanned item and that final step of swiping my payment card is akin to being stuck on an elevator between floors. After the first "beep" of the UPC scanner, I am trapped. I no longer have an easy excuse to run out of the store, if needed. I have to have to have to keep it cool and stay non-panicky, dammit, until that receipt is in my hand, right? I mean, otherwise...I'd look like a complete ass running out of there.)

And, oh, the marketing meeting at my former job in a stuffy, sardine-can-of-a conference room! I'll never forget that panic attack.
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“Just Calm Down” And Other Non-Helpful Advice For Panickers

Well, it's been one of those banner weeks: I've had a panic attack just about every single day for the past seven days.

Thank you, thank you. I know.

Allow me to thank my triggers, without which none of this would be possible: bridges, low blood sugar, being more than ten minutes from home, and driving at night. You've all been instrumental in my lack of success this week.

If only snark and sarcasm could ward off anxiety, right?

That'd be perfect (for me, at least), but it can't.

And you know what else isn't all that great at warding off anxiety?

Well-intentioned sentiments like "just calm down" and "there's nothing wrong with you" from well-meaning friends and family members. Their intentions are noble, obviously -- but, as a panicker, you know exactly why those phrases aren't helpful. Right?
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What Does A Panic Attack Look Like? Watch This Young Woman’s Honest Video

To the outsider, panic is often invisible.

You can't see the tachycardia or palpitations. You can't see the adrenaline, the air hunger, or the dizziness.

But just because you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there.

Popular culture (or at least this Google image search) seems to suggest that panic is this super-detectable experience that causes sufferers to pull their hair, widen their eyes, and clutch their fists or faces.

Maybe that's true for some -- but surely not for all. Panic can easily go undetected, and I sure know from experience: just recently, I had a panic attack while in line at my local CVS store. As I laid out my purchases on the counter, I felt dizzy, hot and sweaty, nauseated, lightheaded, and my heart was probably beating around 120 bpm.

"Do you have an ExtraCare card?" the cashier asked.

"Oh, yep -- let me get it out. Here you go."



She scanned my items none the wiser. I was panicking and she had no idea.
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Apple’s Siri Finally Delivers Suicide Prevention Info

Since Apple's release of Siri, the personal digital assistant tucked into the latest versions of the iPhone and other "iProducts", people have been asking her all sorts of questions from serious to silly. (And, this guy even tried to get Siri to talk to herself. And it sort of worked.)

Although iPhone users are definitely having some fun with her Easter eggs, she's designed to handle more routine inquiries, like how to find Eddie's Diner or a list of chiropractors are in your town. She can also set reminders for you, add items to your grocery list, or send text messages on your behalf.

She's a device, but she's also a personality: sometimes clever, sometimes caustic.


My husband brought home his new iPhone last year, I decided to put Siri to the test by asking her something more serious -- if I should kill myself. I pretended that I was suicidal, and I asked for help.

But she was less than helpful:
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My TEDx Talk: Anxiety — Hibernate, Adapt, or Migrate?

Awhile back, I wrote about how nervous I was to speak at my local TEDx event in Williamsport, PA.

I was pretty scared. Would I get lightheaded? Would I pass out? What if I couldn't remember anything I wanted to talk about?

I wanted to talk about panic attacks. I wanted to talk about how hard it was to work in a call center while dealing with panic disorder. I wanted to talk about those dreadful "inspirational" posters on workplace walls and I wanted to...
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‘Surviving Anxiety’ With Solome Tibebu (And Her Obsessions)

Phew. What a week.
In the past seven days, I've managed to destroy my to-do list (in a good way). What I mean is this: I've completed so many little (and big) tasks that had been clogging up the pages of my brightly-colored At-A-Glance daily organizer.
I love crossing stuff off.
I've finished grading final presentations and final papers for the marketing course that I taught this semester at a local college. I've hacked together a syllabus for one of the two communication courses I'll be teaching in January.
I survived a pre-op appointment with an ear-nose-throat doctor (more on that later!), hosted my in-laws for an overnight visit, and fought two very difficult panic attacks with my awesome husband at my side.
Oh, and I also made fudge. Yes, fudge -- delicious chocolate peanut butter fudge. Mmmm.
Needless to say, it's been a busy week.
With that said, I'm going to share someone else's content today. I'm always on the lookout for people who share their mental health stories both openly and eloquently.
Salome Tibebu is one of those people. She recently spoke about her OCD at a TEDx event in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area. In the video below, she talks openly about her childhood compulsions, including the need to eat a very specific number of similarly-colored M & M's in a row:
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