Awhile back, I wrote about how nervous I was to speak at my local TEDx event in Williamsport, PA.

I was pretty scared. Would I get lightheaded? Would I pass out? What if I couldn’t remember anything I wanted to talk about?

I wanted to talk about panic attacks. I wanted to talk about how hard it was to work in a call center while dealing with panic disorder. I wanted to talk about those dreadful “inspirational” posters on workplace walls and I wanted to talk about ducks in wintertime and mastery and autonomy and purpose and — let me catch my breath — motivation.

The theme? Breakthrough. I wanted to re-frame a breakdown into a breakthrough.

If you’ll pardon my cliché, everything went better than expected. I hope you’ll watch my talk to see exactly how an otherwise panicky gal can compose herself for this once-in-a-lifetime kind of opportunity:

And I didn’t even need the chair.