I was born with a non working mind, I wasn’t able to think, I lay in bed until somebody came to get me, there was very little affection which was only shown towards animals like all children.
The summer of 67 a near drowning erases my memory and the tiny bit of feelings, and the shock of it, I am no longer this passive child.
A specialist or psychologist told my mother, your son is retarded and there isn’t any type of therapy for his condition.
In 2004 a clinical psychologist working two other psychologist with 28 years of working with people traumatized by severe head injuries said after hear my childhood memories, “I can see as a child your brain was retarded, but, the spirit inside is and that is how you got better.
What I remember from childhood is when I attended school my brain worked like the first few years of my life, yet, when out of school and faced with conflicts, problems or challenges I was able to see images helping to understand how work, build or figure out how to do what ever it was in front of me.
After 3 seeing 3 psychologists in 3 different fields of practice, this state of mind is known as autistic savant. Like all savants, I can’t explain how these images appear or how some are of things not yet made or from the past even as far back as the 1800s.
What I know about people developing problems in their heads is due to how they use they mind, at a very early age around 5 or 6 they begin to use the mind, slowly intercepting the five senses with what they want to think. The brain doesn’t know up from down, cold from hot or wet from dry and so on, once the person starts to think they slowly feed the brain with new information taking in by the five senses. This in turn slows down the learning process, or limits the brain’s ability to develop.
When a child is born the five senses feeds the brain information and continues to do so until the mind takes over completely at around age six, pushing the subconscious mind to only come out during sleep. How sad is this, the subconscious mind is the most intelligent part of the brain, not he conscious mind.
The subconscious mind I believe is what connects autistic savants with the ability to use their brain on a much high level. You have this ability, but, you would much rather “Think your way” through life. JC

This is a great post, Elisha! I just finished a book called ‘Wake Up to Your Habits’ which follows very closely the practice that you prescribe in the post. The book helps readers to connect with a ‘negative’ feeling (like judgement, and with the story they associate with the feeling), to follow a series of questions to mindfully choose new thoughts in that situation, and to complete a body exercise after which they can decide on a behavior or action to begin to create a new experience. The book also helps readers to follow a similar model for situations in which they want to create a ‘positive’ emotion. They identify the feeling they want to create, connect with the story that is preventing the feeling, choose new thoughts through guided questions, and complete a body exercise after which they can decide on a behavior or action to create an experience they want in that situation. Thank you for confirming that I am on the right track!!

Nice post. Yah! “Do not judge the book by its cover” We must bear that phrase in our mind. If we only know the person by his/her name, then we must dig deeper to know him/her so well. It is also applicable to our own self.