Bipolar II

Haunted By Insomnia

I’ve spent the first 28 years of my life suffering from acute insomnia. Hypo mania will do that to you. When I finally got properly diagnosed with Bipolar II, and started medication, I couldn’t believe the feeling I had to wake up without terrible lack of sleep. I remember as a child lying awake all night and dreading the next morning cause I knew I would be fueled...
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Bipolar II

What Is Complex Bereavement?

Earlier this year I lost a loved one and I’ve never experienced death before so when it happened, I was lost. The whole process was new and strange to me. I recall initially looking up the stages online and wondering why I didn’t seem to fall into any of the fundamental steps of processing the death of a loved one. Then I recall someone giving me a book on grieving and I would...
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Bipolar II

When Your Medication Changes

I’ve been on Lamictal for over five years, and about a month ago my psychiatrist cut my daily dosage in half. As a result, I have been able to see a difference in my behavior, in a good way. I find myself more relaxed yet not able to deal with idle time. Things that I previously enjoy like my Hulu television shows now seem mundane. It’s not like I’ve stopped watching television but...
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Bipolar II

Do You Have An Irritable Child?

I’ve been having trouble with my Mac Pro charger. When I put it in sometimes the light comes on indicating it is being charged, but, sometimes it doesn’t make the connection and doesn’t charge itself.

Last night it wasn’t making the connection. I had 5% left on the charger and just started watching that new ABC show “This is Us” when it shut down. I lost all the power, but, that’s cool,...
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Bipolar II

Bipolar II: Mania & Depression Can Go Hand in Hand

I recently attended a seminar that discussed mood disorders, and the instructor showed what Bipolar II looked like by drawing a horizontal line as a baseline, then a wave that reflected the ups and downs of manic depression. I looked at the visual and disagreed.

I thought back to my pre-diagnosed days, when I was hypomanic without any knowledge of my condition. If I were to try and draw a...
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General

The Post Break-Up Revenge Body

I don’t have it right now, and it occurred to me that I might run into my ex cause we both belong to the same gym. Then yesterday it happened. I walked toward my usual machine, got on, and started working out. I don’t really pay attention to other people around me at the gym; I keep to myself and try to stay in the zone. I had previously dreaded the thought of...
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General

Being Single & Being Singled Out

Last weekend I attended a National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) conference in Northern California. One of the workshops I attended was on suicide prevention. Thankfully, I’ve never been down that dark road but heard the speaker was fantastic so decided to attend. She opened by asking questions from the audience and depending on the answer would hand out a Starbucks gift card. One of the questions was about being single at a...
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General

The Man Bun

In other words, superficial reasons to end a relationship. I dated someone in my past that started out looking great. He had a clean-cut haircut and a smooth face. Then slowly he started to change his appearance. He stopped shaving, and grew out his facial hair.  Then started to grow his hair.

Then it got worse.

He took on one of the latest trends, the MB aka the Man Bun.

I don’t think I need to explain it...
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Coping Skills

When It’s Hard to Reach Out To Friends

Recently I’ve had some life changing events that have caused some new challenges and emotions in my life that I have never had to deal with before. In the past, when I had occurrences that caused me turmoil, I always had my go-to people that I would call to seek help and advice.  However, lately due to some unfortunate circumstances, I have found it hard to pick up the...
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