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Bipolar II

When Side Effects Implode

I realize that I am at a crossroad in life and it kept me up the other night. I realized that I have no sex drive and am sauntering through life like a normal person. Welcome to planet earth!! I have always been an alien and liked it with a crude hatred at the end of the day. But, without a sex drive, and feeling normal, makes me wonder: Do I want to be regular?...
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General

Traveling Alone

Well, I made it to New York to celebrate my birthday, and found myself alone in my own hotel room, eating out alone, and meeting random people all along the way. It was awesome. I felt like a new person. I’ve never been one of those people who couldn’t eat alone, and recall the times I was not able to do it.

Years ago I studied abroad in England I made it a point...
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Coping Skills

Pop Up Articles: Recommended for You?

In the modern age we have experts tracking what we read on the Internet; knowing that, often times I get disturbed when I see the suggested articles that pop up and seem way off. It freaks me out when I read “Recommended for You” and the articles seem ridiculous to me, or negative. Or am I in serious denial about articles that are supposed to help me. There has to be a reason why the...
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Coping Skills

The Subconscious Mind: Turning 38

I’m turning 38 in two days, and recently I realized this entire last year I’ve been telling people I’m 36. Yes, ageism exists in the world, but I am not ashamed of my age, or aging in general. However, I wonder what my subconscious mind has to say about it. Well, based on my year record of telling people I’m 36, obviously my mind is in denial, or did it actually believed I was a...
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Bipolar II

When Your Therapist Gives You an “AHA” Moment

I’ve been in therapy for a few months now which is all new to me. I see the positive changes it has made in my life and am very grateful that I found an excellent therapist that is a great fit for me. I started therapy because I thought I came to a point in my life where I needed change, and believed I had a lot of issues and there was something wrong with me.

Recently, I...
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Bipolar II

Fat Check Med Control: The Final Frontier

I had to pull the plug. Enough mind games was enough. It was time for me to make a definitive decision about taking my medication, and stop the see saw of wondering if I was going to gain weight on my medication or not. Not to mention all the crazy diet restrictions I imposed on myself.

I stopped taking it yesterday. And today I didn’t have to deal with the stress of wondering if I was going to...
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Bipolar II

Fat Check: Med Control VI

I bought the chocolate eggs. Doesn’t mean I’m going to eat them right away or binge on them or, most importantly, indulge in the middle of the night and end up with chocolate in my bed, but the thought of it all being over Easter Sunday made me do it. As far as the cheese is concerned, I am allowing myself to have it on salads, not on its own. Still a tough challenge but a...
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