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Fear + Anxiety = Insomnia

Tuesday, February 24th, 2015

sleepless240Recently I was watching an interview featuring Tupac Shakur from jail called “Uncensored and Uncut: The Lost Prison Tapes.” The interviewer discussed gangs in America, and how gang violence affected his life and those the he believed turned on him. Tupac stated:

“Fear is stronger than love, fear is stronger than love. Remember that.”

I don’t know if I agree with this comment but, it had me thinking about fear and in whatever capacity, how fear affects our lives. Having given some thought to this statement, in my experience, fear feeds anxiety.

Fear is defined as “An unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.”


Suicide Awareness at the Oscars

Monday, February 23rd, 2015

suicide240The Oscars are watched by millions of viewers. Last night I was cooking and listening to the Oscars in the background and stopped when the award given for the best documentary short went to “Crisis Hotline.” One of the Producer’s, Dana Perry, and one of the recipients of the award, had something to say about suicide when she dedicated the award to her son:

“I want to dedicate this to my son Evan Perry. We lost him to suicide. We should talk about suicide out loud. This is for him.”


Taking Meds

Saturday, February 21st, 2015


American Sniper Murder trial “I don’t know if I’m insane or sane.” (Billy Ray Routh)

Thursday, February 19th, 2015

gavel240Eddie Ray Routh on trial for killing Chris Kyle, from the film “American Sniper,” as well as Chad Littlefield manifests some interesting arguments for mental health education. The argument of insanity has been used and/or abused for defense attorneys for decades. This trial is no exception as the defense attorney pleads insanity as the reason for Routh’s killings. This case brings forth our continual use of insanity to decipher cases. Now let’s pull out ONE quotes from this trial:

An officer asks if he’s OK and Routh replies:

“I’m just so nervous about what’s been happening in my life today. I don’t know what’s been happening. I’ve been so paranoid schizophrenic all day. I don’t know what to even think of the world right now. I don’t know if I’m insane or sane.”

The officer’s response to this statement goes as follows:


What Do You Do When Your Day Starts Off Bad

Wednesday, February 11th, 2015

alarmclock240I started this exercise a few weeks ago. Every morning I sit at my desk and write down positive affirmations. For example:

You are a positive person

You are a positive person

You are a positive person

You are a positive person

I pick a sentence and write it over and over and it is my mantra for the day. Sometimes I sit down and struggle to come up with my sentence for the day. Not today! Today I woke up and for no reason whatsoever things went array. I struggled hooking my bra and when I finally gave up and hooked it in the front and struggled to move it around my body to the back, I realized it was twisted in the middle. The irritability that accompanies my hypomania set in and I felt the wave of anger penetrate my mind. So, I took a moment and told myself to breath.

Then, I went to get dressed and saw my dirty workout clothes on my dresser and thought to myself, I know I bought two sports bras at Target, and realized I hadn’t used the other one yet. The brand new clean one. I started to search my closet and couldn’t locate it. Mind you, I was getting late and would be late to work so stopped myself and assured myself I could look for it when I got home. Why today of all days did I have to find it? No idea. Again, I took a deep breath and stepped away from my closet.


Women’s Weight Measured in Bones

Tuesday, February 10th, 2015

elbow240“Robyn Lawley on Being the First ‘Plus-Size’ Model in SI Swimsuit Issue History” (article below.)

And she’s not the only one. Calvin Klein featured a plus size model that weighed in at size 10. Ok. Now that we are showing “plus size” models in renowned magazines or ad campaigns, the first thing I think of isn’t what is the size of the model, I think of the points of a woman’s body that some use to register their weight. Some use a scale, others judge based on how their clothes fit, but, over the years I have heard women use their bone structure to measure their current weight.

Here are top 10 quotes women have used to determine weight based on their bones:

  1. “If I don’t see my collar bone, I know I’ve gained weight and need to diet.”
  2. “I check out my ankle bone. I refused to have cankles so my ankle bone is important to me.”
  3. “I like having a tiny wrist so it’s also important to see the bump on the side.”
  4. “Backbone. If I bend forward and don’t feel my backbone, I worry.”
  5. “Shoulder pop. I take pictures with my hand on my waist and my shoulder pushed forward to show my skinny arms.”
  6. “When I cross my legs, I better see my knee cap.”
  7. “It’s important for me to see my rib cage when I suck it in. Front and back.”
  8. “Elbow bone. I check it out once and awhile to make sure it’s still there.”
  9. “I like my hip bone. It makes me feel like my stomach is flat.”
  10. “If I have to suck in my cheeks to see my cheek bone that’s not good, so I jump rope.”

MasterChef Junior and the New Generation

Monday, February 9th, 2015

kidcooking240There have been several articles that have been written about how the new generation is being raised with a cushion. Some people believe parents are too easy on their children. For example, at a sporting event there are no winners or losers. Everyone’s a winner. Such nurturing can result in a lack of teaching competition and the value of winning an award.

Having said that, when I watch MasterChef Junior I see how the contestants show support. They cry when their competitors are eliminated, and high give each other left and right. If you ever have seen MasterChef for adults, you’d see a different show.


Why I Can’t, and Don’t, Build Things

Wednesday, February 4th, 2015

lightbulbs240I think it is super sexy when a guy can fix things, and build things. The new generation is not as handy as the baby boomers are, and I’m sure more single women are learning how to manage things around their house which is great. I can screw in a light bulb. That’s pretty much it. I want to move my bed tonight and think I can manage that.

One of my super fixer friends once said I’m not handy cause I don’t try. That is true but, when I think back to my childhood I recall when I tried to fix something and I would get so irritated and frustrated and impatient that my anger would overcome by ability to have reason and make it through the project. Some may think if it as giving up or say I am a quitter. This is true, however, was it truly worth the angst that would overcome my emotions and my mind? My inability to handle basic things like pulling out a splinter would drive me over the edge, not to mention how my oversensitive response to things probably drove my family over the edge.


Rand Paul: Normal vs. Abnormal

Monday, February 2nd, 2015

randpaul240A recent article in the Huffington Post called “Rand Paul: Children Got ‘Profound Mental Disorders’ After Receiving Vaccinations” quotes Paul stating:

“I’ve heard of many tragic cases of walking, talking, normal children, who wound up with profound mental disorders after vaccines.

What? “Tragic cases” and mental illness is seen in an abnormal child that doesn’t walk or talk like a normal one is his education on mental health, and he has a political platform to do so? Who are writing these speeches? I guess it doesn’t matter cause despite the fact he probably didn’t write it, he said it. In this debate, Paul allowing parents more choice in the vaccination of their children; calling it a matter of “freedom.” He then goes on to saying he had personal knowledge of kids “who wound up with profound mental disorders” after receiving immunizations for diseases like Hepatitis B and measles.


This or That: The psychiatrist meets the therapist

Saturday, January 31st, 2015

mentalking240I should have known it was coming. My psychiatrist recommended me the therapist I’m working with which has been an amazing experience. I tend to tell more to my therapist then my psychiatrist which is stupid, and weird, cause one is prescribing my medication while the other one is… I’m still new to therapy so won’t say something that doesn’t speak to its worth. It is worth a lot.

“If it is alright with you I’d like to speak to Dr. X.” He handed me release papers.

“What are you going to talk about?”

“Nothing you mentioned that you don’t want me to talk about.” I already said there were subjects I was not willing to discuss with my psychiatrist, which I will not divulge here, but he respectfully acknowledged my sensitively to it, and knew those subjects were off limits.

“Ok. Great.” I signed the paper. 


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