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Bipolar I

When your friend calls you and is depressed

Everyone’s experiences and symptoms of depression are different. People have unique coping mechanisms, and hopefully manage their episode as best they can.

When I am depressed, I do not want to talk to anyone. I avoid the phone like the plague, and often refuse to have visitors. I rarely want to leave my place. I know that is bad and unhealthy but it’s my experience. However, some people deal with depression by calling others, asking for company,...
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Bipolar I

When you cancel your therapist session

There are a lot of reasons to cancel a session with your therapist.

I just got over my depression and am back to my job, and think, okay, I don’t want to drop money for a session when I don’t have anything to say.

And I think that’s what it comes down to. Why would you pay money and waste someone’s time when you have nothing to contribute?

Then I thought about it, and felt weird entering my new job...
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Bipolar II

Beverly Hills 90210 & Depression

Alright, I’m just going to come out and say it. I have no shame to my game. During a bad depression, when it comes to watching television, I find myself watching Beverly Hills 90210. Now a days there are plenty of reputable shows to choose from but no, it was all about Andrea and Brandon and Donna and David.

To be fair, I grew up watching 90210 but eventually outgrew it, however, somehow it came back into...
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My Depression is Over, So Now What?

Whether your depression is long or short, or your recovery time is swift or slow, once you get out of a depression, it is game time.

Here are some things to consider when you are first coming out of a depression to implement into your life:

Health and Fitness: So you have to go back to the gym, cause there are no excuses now, so, get back on that horse and find another machine to use, different weights,...
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10 Things To Know About Bad Boys

Why do I like bad boys, and hate myself for it, cause I can't seem to get away from them.
What I know about bad boys:


They don't necessarily drive motorcycles, or have different clothes, or talk a certain way, they're a mystique
They knock on your door when you least expect them, or want them to, but can't help opening it
They have a sparkle in their eye that is hard to avoid
They are narcissistic beyond reason...
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Bipolar II

The Definition of Anxiety

I’ve always suffered from some from of anxiety. Whether it’s running a red light, opening bills, the inability to sleep, fear of the future, or sometimes, anxiety just exists without a place to pinpoint it. Currently, the worst form of anxiety for me is doing something I do not want to do.

Recently, I looked up the word anxiety and found two definitions:

a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with...
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The Non-Anti Depressant Pill

It hit me like a sad brick. I don’t want to leave my home for a few days cause I don’t want to leave my non-pharmaceutical anti depressant pill: The Fat Man. I’ve written about my fat cat before but now that I am exiting a depression I see that I’m tied to that live being that carried me through my rough patch. And despite what the Internet says, I feel anxious with the thought of...
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Where is God this Christmas?

I think it was about four or five years ago (probably more) that I stopped going to church on Christmas Eve. It’s not that I stopped being holy or whatever, I just felt like a poser or a fraud cause I stopped practicing Catholicism a long time ago.

Recently, over the past several months, I’ve tried really hard to practice some kind of spirituality. I’d meditate, or at least try to meditate, and periodically do the Rosary...
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How Did I Fall Victim To A Narcissist?

Excuses Excuses Excuses: I can’t tell you how many excuses I have made to justify narcissistic behavior. Sadly, once you start making excuses for a narcissist, it begins to become normalcy. Your excuses become a form of truth cause when you start to come up with excuses, and continue to hold onto those excuses, you start to believe them, which can result in becoming lost and trapped.

Denial: Similar to excuses, denial takes center stage. Once you...
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