Archives for Bipolar II

Bipolar II

Haunted By Insomnia

I’ve spent the first 28 years of my life suffering from acute insomnia. Hypo mania will do that to you. When I finally got properly diagnosed with Bipolar II, and started medication, I couldn’t believe the feeling I had to wake up without terrible lack of sleep. I remember as a child lying awake all night and dreading the next morning cause I knew I would be fueled...
Continue Reading

Bipolar II

What Is Complex Bereavement?

Earlier this year I lost a loved one and I’ve never experienced death before so when it happened, I was lost. The whole process was new and strange to me. I recall initially looking up the stages online and wondering why I didn’t seem to fall into any of the fundamental steps of processing the death of a loved one. Then I recall someone giving me a book on grieving and I would...
Continue Reading

Bipolar II

When Your Medication Changes

I’ve been on Lamictal for over five years, and about a month ago my psychiatrist cut my daily dosage in half. As a result, I have been able to see a difference in my behavior, in a good way. I find myself more relaxed yet not able to deal with idle time. Things that I previously enjoy like my Hulu television shows now seem mundane. It’s not like I’ve stopped watching television but...
Continue Reading

Bipolar II

Do You Have An Irritable Child?

I’ve been having trouble with my Mac Pro charger. When I put it in sometimes the light comes on indicating it is being charged, but, sometimes it doesn’t make the connection and doesn’t charge itself.

Last night it wasn’t making the connection. I had 5% left on the charger and just started watching that new ABC show “This is Us” when it shut down. I lost all the power, but, that’s cool,...
Continue Reading

Bipolar II

Bipolar II: Mania & Depression Can Go Hand in Hand

I recently attended a seminar that discussed mood disorders, and the instructor showed what Bipolar II looked like by drawing a horizontal line as a baseline, then a wave that reflected the ups and downs of manic depression. I looked at the visual and disagreed.

I thought back to my pre-diagnosed days, when I was hypomanic without any knowledge of my condition. If I were to try and draw a...
Continue Reading

Bipolar I

You Don’t Understand Depression

Sometimes people expect you to buck up. Sometimes you put the pressure on yourself to buck up. But, it doesn’t go that way when you’re depressed.

When you are confused about your mental state, or feel off, it’s not like you can talk yourself out of it. And the worse thing is to have people say “snap out of it.” It’s hard to snap out of anything when you can’t put your finger on...
Continue Reading