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When your friend calls you and is depressed

Everyone’s experiences and symptoms of depression are different. People have unique coping mechanisms, and hopefully manage their episode as best they can.

When I am depressed, I do not want to talk to anyone. I avoid the phone like the plague, and often refuse to have visitors. I rarely want to leave my place. I know that is bad and unhealthy but it’s my experience. However, some people deal with depression by calling others, asking for company,...
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When you cancel your therapist session

There are a lot of reasons to cancel a session with your therapist.

I just got over my depression and am back to my job, and think, okay, I don’t want to drop money for a session when I don’t have anything to say.

And I think that’s what it comes down to. Why would you pay money and waste someone’s time when you have nothing to contribute?

Then I thought about it, and felt weird entering my new job...
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Beverly Hills 90210 & Depression

Alright, I’m just going to come out and say it. I have no shame to my game. During a bad depression, when it comes to watching television, I find myself watching Beverly Hills 90210. Now a days there are plenty of reputable shows to choose from but no, it was all about Andrea and Brandon and Donna and David.

To be fair, I grew up watching 90210 but eventually outgrew it, however, somehow it came back into...
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My Depression is Over, So Now What?

Whether your depression is long or short, or your recovery time is swift or slow, once you get out of a depression, it is game time.

Here are some things to consider when you are first coming out of a depression to implement into your life:

Health and Fitness: So you have to go back to the gym, cause there are no excuses now, so, get back on that horse and find another machine to use, different weights,...
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10 Things To Know About Bad Boys

Why do I like bad boys, and hate myself for it, cause I can't seem to get away from them.
What I know about bad boys:


They don't necessarily drive motorcycles, or have different clothes, or talk a certain way, they're a mystique
They knock on your door when you least expect them, or want them to, but can't help opening it
They have a sparkle in their eye that is hard to avoid
They are narcissistic beyond reason...
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The Definition of Anxiety

I’ve always suffered from some from of anxiety. Whether it’s running a red light, opening bills, the inability to sleep, fear of the future, or sometimes, anxiety just exists without a place to pinpoint it. Currently, the worst form of anxiety for me is doing something I do not want to do.

Recently, I looked up the word anxiety and found two definitions:

a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with...
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The Non-Anti Depressant Pill

It hit me like a sad brick. I don’t want to leave my home for a few days cause I don’t want to leave my non-pharmaceutical anti depressant pill: The Fat Man. I’ve written about my fat cat before but now that I am exiting a depression I see that I’m tied to that live being that carried me through my rough patch. And despite what the Internet says, I feel anxious with the thought of...
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Laundry II: A Secret Sign of Depression

There are such insightful and helpful comments written on my initial post "Laundry: A Secret Sign of Depression" that I wanted to share another interesting observation about another laundry sign that I've recently noticed in my life.

Initially my laundry basket was empty cause I was wearing the same clothes everyday over and over again. Yet, finally, once I had a full load of laundry ready to clean, I put it in the washer and dryer and left it...
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Laundry: A Secret Sign of Depression

Most people think that when you’re depressed you don’t do house chores like taking out the trash, or doing the dishes, or laundry or whatever.

Depression has many faces. I don’t think you can have a list of “here are symptoms of depression” and have it fit someone’s experience of it.

Having said that, I have a new sign of depression that I recently noted.

My laundry basket isn’t full. That's weird.  Usually when I'm depressed it might overflow a...
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