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Bipolar II

Bipolar II: Mania & Depression Can Go Hand in Hand

I recently attended a seminar that discussed mood disorders, and the instructor showed what Bipolar II looked like by drawing a horizontal line as a baseline, then a wave that reflected the ups and downs of manic depression. I looked at the visual and disagreed.

I thought back to my pre-diagnosed days, when I was hypomanic without any knowledge of my condition. If I were to try and draw a...
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You Don’t Understand Depression

Sometimes people expect you to buck up. Sometimes you put the pressure on yourself to buck up. But, it doesn’t go that way when you’re depressed.

When you are confused about your mental state, or feel off, it’s not like you can talk yourself out of it. And the worse thing is to have people say “snap out of it.” It’s hard to snap out of anything when you can’t put your finger on...
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What Causes Writer’s Block?

Being Bipolar II aka chronic hypo manic has its positive points. I’ve never had any trouble writing.  Even when I've gone through episodes of depression, I would continusally produce work. I honestly never understood when people would talk about writers block, till now.

I have two books to finish that are almost done, and for some reason I can’t get myself to sit down and do the work that needs to be done. The...
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Don’t Cry In Your Cubicle

Well it happened, finally. The denial of my loved ones death came to a screeching halt, and of course it has to happen at work.  I was not prepared for it.

That morning I woke up from a nightmare. I thought I was hanging out with my loved one then all of a sudden they disappeared, and I realized they were gone. When I woke up I was like ok that was weird....
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Emotional Versus Physical Affairs

I think most people say emotional affairs are worse then physical ones but, I’ll take an emotional affair over a physical any day of my life.

If you’ve read my blogs in the past I was in an unfaithful relationship. I was met with a partner that would have sex on and off with other women which was hurtful. But, when it came down to the betrayal and emotional damage it had, it was the...
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Mood Disorders & Family Vacations

August is around the corner and a lot of families will be taking off to enjoy time together, and embark on fun adventures with their loved ones. This can be hard for parents, and on a child, who may suffer from a mood disorder. I thought about how hard those times could be for me so I thought I’d share a story.

I have a mood disorder, and as a young adult my...
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Just let it go…You let it go!

Recently I have struggled with letting things go and I wonder what it would be like to just go with the flow in life, and let things go. I see other people are able to do it and it’s frustrating. The worst part is when you don’t let things go, you can obsess. Let me share an example:

Last week I went to the laundry mat to drop off a dress. When I went...
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How I Survived a Toxic Relationship

I’ve read a lot of helpful blogs about toxic relationships, for example, signs of being in a toxic relationship, and how to recover from one. It has allowed me to take some time to think about my own previous experience of living in a toxic relationship, and how I got out of one.

When I look back to being in a toxic relationship, I realized that I felt trapped. Signs like manipulation,...
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