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I refer to my 20’s as the Roaring 20’s cause for the majority of it, I was living in New York in a hypomanic state which looking back was pretty wild. However, sometimes I miss that time. I was hyper social and alive and...
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Stage One: Denial & Isolation Part II

Well, it has officially been a month since my loved one passed, and I am still in the denial phase. In fact, when I get condolence phone calls from people, or emails, or texts, they cry or show such emotion that I’m like okayyyy. Where is my sad face? I am back at work doing my routine. Weird.

I even walked through my loved ones house and felt fine. I saw pictures of us together, and...
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10 Actualities of Living with Bipolar II Without Medication

Sleep: You better get ready for your eyeballs to burn cause my might not sleep for days at a time, or take hours to fall asleep, or not be able to sleep throughout the entire night.
Hyper sexuality: Hope you have a giant box of condoms on hand cause you’re gonna need it.
Extremity: You are going to do everything to the max so fasten your seatbelt.
Speech: Get ready for your loved ones to ask...
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One Word to Describe a Bad Breakup

Well, this definitely takes the cake for all the men I have broken up with, or have broken up with me, or somewhere in-between. Now, we’ve all gone through bad breakups, and each is unique to every relationship. In my experience, I think the worse breakups are when the band-aid doesn’t get ripped off, and it becomes a long term break up, and you go from being on and off, and up and down, till...
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When your friend calls you and is depressed

Everyone’s experiences and symptoms of depression are different. People have unique coping mechanisms, and hopefully manage their episode as best they can.

When I am depressed, I do not want to talk to anyone. I avoid the phone like the plague, and often refuse to have visitors. I rarely want to leave my place. I know that is bad and unhealthy but it’s my experience. However, some people deal with depression by calling others, asking for company,...
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When you cancel your therapist session

There are a lot of reasons to cancel a session with your therapist.

I just got over my depression and am back to my job, and think, okay, I don’t want to drop money for a session when I don’t have anything to say.

And I think that’s what it comes down to. Why would you pay money and waste someone’s time when you have nothing to contribute?

Then I thought about it, and felt weird entering my new job...
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Beverly Hills 90210 & Depression

Alright, I’m just going to come out and say it. I have no shame to my game. During a bad depression, when it comes to watching television, I find myself watching Beverly Hills 90210. Now a days there are plenty of reputable shows to choose from but no, it was all about Andrea and Brandon and Donna and David.

To be fair, I grew up watching 90210 but eventually outgrew it, however, somehow it came back into...
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My Depression is Over, So Now What?

Whether your depression is long or short, or your recovery time is swift or slow, once you get out of a depression, it is game time.

Here are some things to consider when you are first coming out of a depression to implement into your life:

Health and Fitness: So you have to go back to the gym, cause there are no excuses now, so, get back on that horse and find another machine to use, different weights,...
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10 Things To Know About Bad Boys

Why do I like bad boys, and hate myself for it, cause I can't seem to get away from them.
What I know about bad boys:


They don't necessarily drive motorcycles, or have different clothes, or talk a certain way, they're a mystique
They knock on your door when you least expect them, or want them to, but can't help opening it
They have a sparkle in their eye that is hard to avoid
They are narcissistic beyond reason...
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The Definition of Anxiety

I’ve always suffered from some from of anxiety. Whether it’s running a red light, opening bills, the inability to sleep, fear of the future, or sometimes, anxiety just exists without a place to pinpoint it. Currently, the worst form of anxiety for me is doing something I do not want to do.

Recently, I looked up the word anxiety and found two definitions:

a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with...
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