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Bipolar II

Naked Not Private: A Hypo Manic Thing

I have no problem being naked, in fact, I feel freedom when I’m free from my clothes. Is that a symptom of chronic hypo mania? I just might be. Especially when you compare other behaviors that shape Bipolar II. You put yourself out there with no shame, especially during a manic episode, and often times as a result, you find yourself in compromising situations. Recently I thought about the times I was living in New York...
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Sexless In The City

I don’t have a boyfriend, the days of friends with privileges are over, I’m not into one night stands, so what am I supposed to do? I am in my late 30’s and my sex drive has escalated to the point where I find myself needing sex more so than ever before.  And the irony is my mood stabilizer and anti-depressant is supposed to lower my sex drive so I am very confused, lost, bewildered and...
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Tell a Story that Begins with a Random Note

One of my old friends gave me this book called “Writers Bock” over a decade ago. I’ve never experienced writers block but I randomly picked it up while cleaning my bookcase and opened to a page that said, “Tell a story that beings with a random note.”

Weird. Very weird cause yesterday I was cleaning out my desk and saw a random note that I forgot about. It was from my college crush that I reconnected with...
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“You’re Too Sensitive!!” Understanding Your Child’s Sensitively Level

When I was a child, I didn’t know that my hyper sensitivity was a possible symptom of Bipolar II disorder. Little things would set me off, and I would find myself uncontrollably crying for what others believed to be mundane things.

I specifically recall getting in a squabble with one of my friends and she said “You’re too sensitive.” Telling someone they’re too sensitive is like telling them they have too many freckles. It was hurtful and...
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Understanding Long Term Depression

When it comes to bipolar disorder, oftentimes people think of a pendulum that goes back and forth and back and forth on an equal playing field. People may think the ebb and flow of living with manic depression is equal. It’s not. Some of us experience months of depression that we try to fight our way out of, but sometimes there is a long term depression that can last a year, or more.
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Understanding Bipolar II

Recently I’ve come across individuals (more so than usual) that aren’t really educated in Bipolar II. Like most mental illnesses, stigma usually takes front stage by people who have little to no education on what exactly a mental illness entails, and what it is like to live with one. It is a complicated, and often times, misunderstood disease which I will do my best to describe.

I have previously compared Chronic Hypo Mania to a Tasmanian devil...
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When Side Effects Implode

I realize that I am at a crossroad in life and it kept me up the other night. I realized that I have no sex drive and am sauntering through life like a normal person. Welcome to planet earth!! I have always been an alien and liked it with a crude hatred at the end of the day. But, without a sex drive, and feeling normal, makes me wonder: Do I want to be regular?...
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When Your Therapist Gives You an “AHA” Moment

I’ve been in therapy for a few months now which is all new to me. I see the positive changes it has made in my life and am very grateful that I found an excellent therapist that is a great fit for me. I started therapy because I thought I came to a point in my life where I needed change, and believed I had a lot of issues and there was something wrong with me.

Recently, I...
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Fat Check Med Control: The Final Frontier

I had to pull the plug. Enough mind games was enough. It was time for me to make a definitive decision about taking my medication, and stop the see saw of wondering if I was going to gain weight on my medication or not. Not to mention all the crazy diet restrictions I imposed on myself.

I stopped taking it yesterday. And today I didn’t have to deal with the stress of wondering if I was going to...
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