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Bipolar II

Understanding Bipolar II

Recently I’ve come across individuals (more so than usual) that aren’t really educated in Bipolar II. Like most mental illnesses, stigma usually takes front stage by people who have little to no education on what exactly a mental illness entails, and what it is like to live with one. It is a complicated, and often times, misunderstood disease which I will do my best to describe.

I have previously compared Chronic Hypo Mania to a Tasmanian devil...
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Bipolar II

When Side Effects Implode

I realize that I am at a crossroad in life and it kept me up the other night. I realized that I have no sex drive and am sauntering through life like a normal person. Welcome to planet earth!! I have always been an alien and liked it with a crude hatred at the end of the day. But, without a sex drive, and feeling normal, makes me wonder: Do I want to be regular?...
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Bipolar II

When Your Therapist Gives You an “AHA” Moment

I’ve been in therapy for a few months now which is all new to me. I see the positive changes it has made in my life and am very grateful that I found an excellent therapist that is a great fit for me. I started therapy because I thought I came to a point in my life where I needed change, and believed I had a lot of issues and there was something wrong with me.

Recently, I...
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Bipolar II

Fat Check Med Control: The Final Frontier

I had to pull the plug. Enough mind games was enough. It was time for me to make a definitive decision about taking my medication, and stop the see saw of wondering if I was going to gain weight on my medication or not. Not to mention all the crazy diet restrictions I imposed on myself.

I stopped taking it yesterday. And today I didn’t have to deal with the stress of wondering if I was going to...
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Bipolar II

Fat Check: Med Control VI

I bought the chocolate eggs. Doesn’t mean I’m going to eat them right away or binge on them or, most importantly, indulge in the middle of the night and end up with chocolate in my bed, but the thought of it all being over Easter Sunday made me do it. As far as the cheese is concerned, I am allowing myself to have it on salads, not on its own. Still a tough challenge but a...
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Bipolar II

Fat Check: Med Control Part II

The weekend did not pan out as I had planned, and my “new” diet pretty much blew up in my face. Like my usual manic self, I over did my expectations and made too many goals (3) that were too extreme to manage in my life right now. And all of this is to make sure I don’t gain weight taking an antidepressant that has a side effect of potential weight gain. Potential is scary enough for me to counteract with a new diet regime.

So my three goals or demands I put on myself were:

No more chocolate Easter eggs
No more late night eating
No cheese

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