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Robin Williams & Charlie Rose

Thursday, August 14th, 2014

shutterstock_110420738Recently there was an episode on Charlie Rose honoring Robin Williams called “Robin Williams Appreciation.” I have never seen Charlie Rose interact with Robin Williams, until now. It was as if Rose became a comic with Williams, and they would banter back and forth as if their geniuses were able to engage in rare form. One particular exchange of dialogue struck a chord in me:

“There are a few people that can do what you do.” (Rose)

“You mean that are actually out of institutions?” (Williams)

People have called Williams a lot of things: a genius, crazy, absurd. However, this particular quote reveals insight into Williams feelings about people that are in institutions.  What is considered “crazy” in our society often times gets blurred.


90210, Sex and the City: Reading the signs of depression

Sunday, August 3rd, 2014

90210..What

You know you have problems and you might be depressed when you are watching Sex and The City reruns (2008) and Beverly Hills 90201 reruns (2009). The numbers are not when anything aired but when I was lost in depression and watched it.


Understanding Quasi Depression

Tuesday, July 22nd, 2014

shutterstock_158393051Depression rears its ugly head in all shapes and sizes. Sometimes our depression isn’t obvious. You don’t have to be stuck in bed for days to be considered depressed. Unfortunately we don’t always know we are in a quasi depression until it’s over, and we look back and recall the signs that we might have missed. Hind sight is always 20/20 but if you pay attention to slight changes in your behavior you might be able to better manage your mental health.

I was quasi depressed about a year ago. The quasi depression was written all over my body. I found myself wearing the same clothes everyday: torn jeans with a rotation of the same shirt just in different colors. I stopped keeping up with personal maintenance like waxing my eyebrows or plucking unwanted hairs.


Living With Extreme Behavior

Monday, July 14th, 2014

shutterstock_189637469Before I was diagnosed with hypomania I lived a life of extremism. I found myself running around like a Tasmanian devil, however, once I was diagnosed and properly medicated I really didn’t have excuses to do anything so excessively anymore. But, sometimes behavior doesn’t change despite medication to help curb symptoms. Does it come done to intensity that accompanies mania, or am I just exercising a behavior that is simply a part of my personality; a behavior that no pill can manage or reduce.


You Are Mentally Ill Vs. You Have a Mental Illness: Knowing the Difference

Tuesday, July 8th, 2014

coatYou are something or you have something. What is the difference and what does that mean to you and the world we live in? How do people respond to language that communicates a mental illness and what is the difference between you are X or you have X? For example, I am diagnosed with Bipolar II. Some people say “Oh you have manic depression” or “Oh you are manic depressive.” Recently, I pondered this slight twist of diction in a sentence because there is a difference. When someone says you ARE something it tends to define you. You tend to think of yourself as the disease when really it is simply one aspect amongst a long list of attributes that constitute our being.


20 Things That Cause Anxiety

Tuesday, July 1st, 2014

blue_shirtWhether it is big or small, most of us experience anxiety. It can be a long dark anxious cloud or a short moment of piercing anxiousness but, whatever form it takes, it’s terrible.

Here are 20 things that cause me anxiety: 

  1. The clock when I am trying to fall asleep
  2. Family events when I don’t feel like myself
  3. Skipping the gym
  4. Searching for my keys
  5. Running into my ex
  6. Checking to make sure the door is locked
  7. Taking a test
  8. Running a red light
  9. Public speaking
  10. Attending a funeral
  11. Being low on toilet paper
  12. Forgetting a birthday
  13. Thinking I forgot to turn off the stove
  14. Being low on gas
  15. Being called in to speak with the boss
  16. Getting bills in the mail I know I haven’t paid
  17. Waiting too long to take out the trash
  18. Checking my email when I haven’t in awhile
  19. Committing to something weeks in advance
  20. Forgetting to take my meds

 

What causes you anxiety?

Anxious man image available from Shutterstock.


Stereotyping Depression in Television

Thursday, May 15th, 2014

remoteWhen we turn on the TV often times the commercials that depict depression show a person in the dark, resting in emotional turmoil, sadness, walking in a forest alone and secluded. I find some of it comical yet sad that society gets fed these images that inaccurately depict depression. Stereotypes unfold visually on the screen, and it is not always indicative of the feelings and/or experience of depression.


Bipolar II: Floating Above The Line

Wednesday, March 19th, 2014

graphMost people educated in Bipolar disorder are familiar with the term Bipolar I, however, sometimes when I say I have Bipolar II I get a follow up question, “What’s that?”

If someone were to Google Bipolar II a flurry of website would pop up with medical information that can seem like you are reading an encyclopedia.  I try to explain it visually.  Imagine a line that signifies a person going along in life without a mental illness.


Depression and Your Loved Ones

Monday, March 17th, 2014

cornerSometime when we go through bouts of depression we are prone to become isolative and ostracize ourselves from our friends and family. When this happens it can result in more stress which can feed your depression.  Here are some tips to help curb the anxiety one can experience when attempting to manage depression when it comes to your loved ones.

Communicate:  When you drop off the planet your loved ones will become concerned about the status of your mental health.  It is important to be honest with your feelings.  If you don’t feel like being social that’s okay.  Just communicate those feelings. 


Poem: When You’re Bipolar

Friday, March 14th, 2014

bubbleWhen you’re bipolar

you feel it

across the breath of a conversation

you think it

all around your world


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