I’m guilty of it, and know that I am not the only one out there who identifies themselves as mentally ill. But, there comes a time when it can become obsessive, or all consuming, and your illness defines your being.
POEM: HUMANS ARE MEANT TO GATHER
I feel bad when I realize my
Behavior has left me
Christmas is going to come and go and before you know it you’re going to find 2014 hit you in the face like a ton of bricks. Some of us make resolutions, others remain anti-resolutions, but either way there are pressures to make changes.
Holidays are rough. We all have to meet together despite annoyances, disappointments, old buried resentments, or whatever. Sometimes passive aggressive behavior is taken out on a turkey, or a pie.
Sometimes you get so lost and fall so deep into another person’s illness, you become trapped. Especially when you struggle with your own mental illness and it impedes your ability to take care of yourself and see things clearly. Your illness can slowly chip away at what‘s right, and make excuses for what’s wrong.
I don’t know
When this will end
But it must
Because it can’t go on forever
I am here for a reason
Are you a recluse or depressed? Being a recluse can be a sign of depression, and depression can result in being a recluse. Here are ten signs of what it means to be a recluse.
Sometimes we find ourselves in relationships that tug and pull, are hot than cold. I recently sat down with a friend who has been, and continues to be, in a relationship that makes it hard to navigate through her life. She is bipolar and, as a result, her relationship reflects her mental illness.
When this occurs you find yourself always in a temperamental state which can be confusing, rough and often times harsh on your mental stability.
Pioneers of the Romantic Era, Coleridge and Wordsworth, held romantic themes that are relevant to Tupac’s own ideology of writing. One of the fundamental themes in Romantic poetry is founded on the premise that creative works stem from natural emotion found from inside the individual. In the Preface of Lyrical Ballads, Wordsworth and Coleridge define poetry as, “The spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings,” and written by someone “possessed of more than usual organic sensibility, but also thought long and deep.” Shakur confessional poetry swims in powerful emotion mixed with straight truth found in his sensibility brought forth through deep thought and contemplation coupled with observation of the world around him. The need to seek and manifest truth sits at the heart of Shakur who was often loathed for his hard core vision of truth rooted in his ongoing “spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings,” which flow in his rhythmic lyrics, his beats, and his tone. Honest self-expression that overflows with emotion and carries “organic sensibility” and “thought long and deep are unveiled:”
In the Event of my Demise
Now as I stand here, a man here
As seen in the history of writers diagnosed with bipolar disorder, we are now able to look at writers who were not “diagnosed” with bipolar disorder, yet, through analyzing the work and stringing similarities from previous artists, we can point to the possibility that some poets grow from a manic depressive brain.
Tupac Amaru Shakur – American Rapper (1971 – 1996)
Tupac Shakur holds the Guinness World Record for the highest selling rap/hip hop artist, selling 74 million worldwide and 44 million in the US alone. Prior to his music career, Shakur was a published poet. At the age of 18 years old he published over a 100 poems in “The Rose that Grew from the Concrete.” Frank Palisano III, writer for the Lummox Journal writes:
There is a simple charm to Tupac’s words without running the risk of being simple. The Rose That Grew From Concrete is the most complete portrait we have thus far of Tupac’s bipolar artistic expressiveness.