devilIt’s difficult to explain what it’s like to live in a hypomanic mind aka Bipolar II.  Whether it’s trying to explain it to your family, or your friends, or even your psychiatrist, finding words to accurately describe your condition can be a challenge.  For me, here are two words for you: Tasmanian Devil.  That pretty much sums it up real nice!

Below is a Chapter taken from my book. I wrote it long before I was diagnosed with Chronic Hypo Mania. To this day, it rings true.

JOURNAL ENTRY – TASMANIAN DEVIL 1999

It’s like a scream in your head.  All the time. It’s persistent, and the body does its best to relieve it. The tongue tries to keep up with rapid thoughts through fast speech, and your legs bolt as they walk hard through the streets and try to appease the frantic pulses of the brain.  When it’s quiet, it also takes hold of the body, and makes your eyes burn because the body is exhausted and it can’t sleep. It’s all the same living thing, just sometimes you swing from the chandeliers, and other times you could give a shit about your place in this world, or wear sweats for a living. And all the time, it’s a stem in your brain that is rooted in the core. The constant pulse is worse than the highs, or lows. It is your brain, and you don’t know any better, because you’ve had it since you were born. Dramatic, emotional, daring, sensitive, passionate, wild, tired.

 (Excerpt taken from Inside the Insane)

Tasmanian Devil image available from Shutterstock.

 







    Last reviewed: 25 Jun 2013

APA Reference
Loberg, E. (2013). Understanding Hypo Mania, The Tazmanian Devil. Psych Central. Retrieved on October 31, 2014, from http://blogs.psychcentral.com/manic-depression/2013/06/24/living-with-hypo-mania-the-tazmanian-devil/

 

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