burningeyecrpdThere are times in our lives when we think about what it would be like to return to the old days before we received psychiatric help and treatment.  As a Bipolar II – Chronic Hypo Manic 35-year-old woman, I have been on my meds for 7 years and have never skipped a dosage. But I think about it sometimes.

In times we contemplate the idea of quitting our meds, or taking a break from them, or cutting back on our milligram intake, it’s important to recall the days of living without medication.  

Next time you ruminate on stopping your meds, make a list of the negative symptoms of your mental illness.  For example, here is my list that keeps me in line. 

Bipolar II Negative Hit List

  • Irritability – I drop a pen and electric rage fires throughout my body. 
  • Rapid Speech – People can’t understand what the heck I am saying.
  • Overconfidence – I come across arrogant and have delusions about what I can accomplish.
  • Lack of Sleep – My eye balls burn because I haven’t slept in days.

It’s ok and natural to entertain the idea of quitting your meds, but, before you do, think back to your earlier days before you got help, and write down the bad times to ensure a life of good times!

POEM: INSOMNIA

How do you explain how the eyes burn?

Sleep is an old habit

So old you forget.

What it’s like to feel your eyes simmer.

You close the steady balls of cotton

Dipped in alcohol

Smiling open inside

Awake

Behind the lids

Stinging more than before.

You are the dead

Alive in the burn.

Like the wood of a bonfire

Almost asleep on the beach

The orange logs get slowly cooked to death

While the sunrises.

Your burn remains.

-eml

Burning eye photo available from Shutterstock

 


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    Last reviewed: 2 Apr 2013

APA Reference
Loberg, E. (2013). How To Stay On Our Meds – List the Bad Times to Ensure a Good Time!. Psych Central. Retrieved on October 30, 2014, from http://blogs.psychcentral.com/manic-depression/2013/04/02/what-keeps-us-on-our-meds-list-the-bad-times-to-ensure-a-good-time/

 

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