How To Stay On Our Meds – List the Bad Times to Ensure a Good Time!
There are times in our lives when we think about what it would be like to return to the old days before we received psychiatric help and treatment. As a Bipolar II – Chronic Hypo Manic 35-year-old woman, I have been on my meds for 7 years and have never skipped a dosage. But I think about it sometimes.
In times we contemplate the idea of quitting our meds, or taking a break from them, or cutting back on our milligram intake, it’s important to recall the days of living without medication.
Next time you ruminate on stopping your meds, make a list of the negative symptoms of your mental illness. For example, here is my list that keeps me in line.
Bipolar II Negative Hit List
- Irritability – I drop a pen and electric rage fires throughout my body.
- Rapid Speech – People can’t understand what the heck I am saying.
- Overconfidence – I come across arrogant and have delusions about what I can accomplish.
- Lack of Sleep – My eye balls burn because I haven’t slept in days.
It’s ok and natural to entertain the idea of quitting your meds, but, before you do, think back to your earlier days before you got help, and write down the bad times to ensure a life of good times!
How do you explain how the eyes burn?
Sleep is an old habit
So old you forget.
What it’s like to feel your eyes simmer.
You close the steady balls of cotton
Dipped in alcohol
Smiling open inside
Behind the lids
Stinging more than before.
You are the dead
Alive in the burn.
Like the wood of a bonfire
Almost asleep on the beach
The orange logs get slowly cooked to death
While the sunrises.
Your burn remains.
Burning eye photo available from Shutterstock
Loberg, E. (2013). How To Stay On Our Meds – List the Bad Times to Ensure a Good Time!. Psych Central. Retrieved on April 25, 2015, from http://blogs.psychcentral.com/manic-depression/2013/04/02/what-keeps-us-on-our-meds-list-the-bad-times-to-ensure-a-good-time/